I can feel myself going up

Just yesterday I found a huge lump on the side of my dogs neck.  His mouth is also swollen to two times its normal size.  I took him to the vet and he said its either an infection or he has cancer.  Im really scared and upset because hes only 8 months old and he has really helped to stablize my moods.  I just love him so much and I dont know what I would do without him.

Anyways with all of this stress and worry I can feel myslef starting to go back up into mania--I just came down from a week and a half of it.  My dog can even tell Im going up.  He always whines, paces and wont stop licking me in the days before I shoot up.

Im still on all my meds but they didnt do anything this last time and I cant afford to miss any school or work beacuse Im so manic I dont want to go.  I was just wondering if there was anything I could do about this or if I just have to ride it out.

I don't know if this will help you or not, but I have seven furkids and when I feel myself going up I sometimes do this and it helps. I sit as quietly as I can - or lay on the floor with one of them - or like now, my cat Lily is curled up on my leg as I type this. I just try to hold on to the calm she gives me - I just stroke her - or whichever I'm with - and really feel her energy. It helps sometimes.

I know where you're at with worry about your pup. I have a kitty who they aren't really sure about - whether he has IBD or lymphoma - or what is going on with him. I worry myself to death over him sometimes - but he knows that too - and he feels it and I know he then worries about me. When I get too "up" I also have a cat who reacts by pottying in front of our dryer - I know it's a direct response to my stress. Sometimes this is like the pot calling the kettle black - me telling you this - because there are many times I can't even get a grip on myself to do it. But I try, when I can.

Earlier today, while I was at work - I cycled really hard and really fast. I was more manic than I've been in a few weeks - and I was just buzzing hardcore. It last about two hours and then boom - gone - just as quickly as it had come on. Lily was with me most of the time through it - we are very close and she somehow seems to know what I need when I need it - and she settled me down.

Am I just rambling?

If you need anyone to talk to about your pup, you let me know... :)

talk to your pdoc or call an emergency psych clinic they can give u something like geodon risperdal or abilify to put a tamper on the mania ( i hope im getting those names right cuz im a little up myself).

And definitely sleep / meditate with eyes closed in the dark.
Dont forget to eat 3 meals too. I find when i skip meals it pushes me into mania as well