horrible mixed episode...HELP

I have been having what my doctor calls a mixed episode since last friday. It has been a little over a week and it doesnt seem to be going away any time soon.


I dont know if anyone here has ever had one of these but the last one I had ended up with me being hospilitized for a week. Basically I am extremely depressed and I really hate myself but I also have the racing thoughts, the tingly warm sensation and the boundless energy that goes along with mania.




I start an outpatient day program on Monday. Any adivice would be greatly solicited. Thank you

I agree. Get to the hospital asap.

I get the same way high energy and very low depression for 3 days of each of the last 2 weeks. The difference is that I didn't act on the suicidal impulses. The only reason I didn't and won't is because I know what
that would do to my kids. I still almost went to the hospital at its peak.

You need to stay safe.

I am with everyone else on this.  I have had mixed episodes and ended up in the hospital due to suicidal thinking.  I checked myself in.  TTU is right - you are young and once you get stabilized there are so many opportunities ahead of you.  Don't get caught in this moment and think this is it, because it is not.  Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Thank you for all your concern.  Im doing better now, even though the outpatient program insnt helping at all.  Im just worried that its going to happen again and I wont know how to deal with it just like I havent been able to deal with it these last two times