Cateyes, i know it hurts, but it does get better. Time does, if not heal, at least scar over old wounds and allow you to touch them without the hurt.
At age 42 i can say your life and view on life does change. It isnt so important to me to be with someone, unless you include Thor, monster puppy.
Yes, life with BP does suck, and it does rob us of what we love and sometimes who we love. But it doesnt rob us of life, like cancer or some fatal diesease. And having life, even with BP means we can get up every day with a chance that something wonderful will happen for us. Be it love, self discovery, or just a great day.
Hang in there. And try to find acceptance in life. I practice acceptance as much as possible, i am thankful for what i have, not for all i have lost. And i live for each day, and for each day to come. Because each and every one of them will be filled with wonder and gifts. Sometimes you just have to find them.
Good luck
Bill