Thanks everyone. There is help out there for us when we get in a bad way. THe big thing is learning to swallow our pride and make the call.
It's not weakness to know your limits. Knowage is power, knowing when to ask for help is just as important as being there to provide help. We all need a hand up at some time in our lives.
Big hugs to everyone here who suffers these demon's. My heart is with you.
Bill