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Posted 12/26/2010 12:30 PM (GMT 0)
 

  A very stressfull day for most of us, that coupled with emotional swings can make it even that much more worse.  How did you all do? Here is how mine went.

  12:00am to 7am Working at the firehouse. Got a little sleep, not much. After the week i had had working both firehouse and  Sears, i knew i was really tired. I even flipped out when i "lost" 400.00. Turns out i was so tired i had put the money on a different credit card. It was ok, although i will have to pay some overlimit fees on the card i thought the money was on.

  So i worked night shift and got home and in bed at 7:30, and stayed there until 1pm. Then i went to my ex's for a nice dinner. After that i took the time and took another nap, 5-8pm. Worked on a model, walked thor, and listened to the foot ball game. Then to bed by 11.

  That was it, no emotional issues. I recognized i was extremely tired and got alot of sleep. I still go by the A.A. verse i learned from a friend many years ago. H.A.L.T.  Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired.  For what ever reason it seems to help with my BPII also.

   Hope you all got thru the holidays intact. Lets hear what you all did. Trust me, it can't be any more boring than what i just described. turn turn turn turn turn turn

   Bill

Posted 12/26/2010 8:56 PM (GMT 0)
I posted / vented yesterday in the depression forum about how boring and depressing my day was going. Long story really short I am the sole caretaker for my husband. He has horrible back and chronic pain issues. We didn't have a bad day, he just slept right through it. As a matter of fact he has yet to be up today. I know this could be a reaction to the opiates he's on, but it's making me nuts. I just keep catching myself listening to him breathing. I'm starting to question when / if I should call his doctor and ask if he's sleeping too much & is it a problem.

I've tried to keep myself busy today but it's a tough balance for me. I caught myself scrubbing walls at 2 this morning & figured if I was definitely starting to go manic. Had to force myself to go to bed even though I stared at the ceiling for a while.

I love my sweetie, but balancing his wants / needs with mine is hard. The bipolar makes it even tougher because I'm almost second guessing myself. Am I doing too much? Do I need more downtime and maybe some help? Am I worrying too much? Am I not worried enough?

Anyway. I got off the subject, but I'm glad you had a good Christmas
Posted 12/26/2010 9:08 PM (GMT 0)
Christmas at home was fine. Christmas at my fiance's parents was fine. But the big dinner with his extended family was a disaster. I went upstairs and laid on the couch for most of it. Finally came downstairs for a few minutes, and then went into a dark bedroom and cried. Uggh. I guess I looked sick and I declined an alcoholic drink so now they think I am pregnant. WTH?! lol But then we went back to my fiance's parents house for the rest of their Christmas and that was totally fine.

I think his mom is onto my anxiety. she made a comment to the effect that the dinner was too loud or overwhelming or something like that. I nodded. Made me feel a little safer inside. My fiance's cousin knows I am bp. I think one other person in the family, but I don't remember for sure.
Posted 12/27/2010 8:30 AM (GMT 0)
was ok. tiring at the end. survived it. jamie
Posted 12/27/2010 10:51 AM (GMT 0)
I was tired going into Christmas so I knew I was going to have hassles. 

Its hard to say to someone that you don't want to go visit them on Christmas day, but I paid the price for making myself go.  Even managed to get the waterworks going there for a while.

I have survived it and have now come out the otherside - so all good again.  For a little while anyway.

Posted 12/27/2010 10:53 PM (GMT 0)
I went to a restarant. on Christmas with my family but felt like I was going to pass out so the paramedics and tome to the hospital. I stayed until sunday night. They said I had low patasium.and put and iv in my arm and gave me patasium... then they did a lot of heart tests.. they came back clear..... When my family and i opened our gifts.. my daughter had a surprise for me. a new bedsparead and sheets and fancy pillows on my bed. and a large bouquet of flowers. for me. It was an ok on sunday..

Happy New year.. Bill..

hugs, Caren

Posted 12/28/2010 4:38 PM (GMT 0)
Caren, so glad you are ok!!!!

My Christmas was emotional of course with my Mom. I took all of your suggestions about taking pictures and cherishing the day. We spent Christmas day at my Mom's and it was a wonderful day. I will cherish it forever. I cried on the way home. I can't bear thinking about it being over. It's too much. I am sure that is why I have been cycling so much the last few days. Of course I normally want Christmas to be over, but not this year.

Anyway, now I just have to deal with these awful symptoms. Mood is changing rapidly during each day. Ugh. I am so irritable, it sucks!

Hugs,
Mogs
Posted 12/28/2010 10:32 PM (GMT 0)
I am so glad you had a good Christmas with your mom. It must be heartbreaking to leave after that. :(
Posted 12/30/2010 6:34 PM (GMT 0)
Thx tortoise; I am glad we had the day together. I means everything. I just couldn't believe how fast it went. We had to leave at a reasonable time to get home to our lab b/c of course he needed a walk. Still we stayed all day until 8pm ish--it was just awful that it was over so fast.

Sounds like you had some struggles but managed? Good for you for denying the alcohol, I wish I was able to deny the merry drinks around the holidays. It's too tough for me. I applaud those who can!!

Hugs,
Mogs
Posted 12/31/2010 3:18 AM (GMT 0)
 

  Mogs, hang in there. ANd you dont need me to say it, but im a man and cant help myself. Treasure each and every day you get with her. God only wants us to be good to each other and enjoy each and every day like it is our last.

  You can and will get thru this.

    WE are here for you . Bill

Posted 12/31/2010 5:05 PM (GMT 0)
As with every year, I hated Christmas as it approached. I had to work nights dec 23 and 24 (7pm to 7am) so went by my ex's place xmas morning to see my kids. My eldest (21) was also there and said not one word to me - he feels I have wronged him and it's a loooong story.

It was ok though, my daughter gave me a card expressing how much she loved me and appreciated the special talks we have together - she's 16 and we can talk about anything.

A couple of days before Christmas I met with my mother whom I have not seen or spoken to in over 15 years. It went very well and actually I came to realize that much of my anger and depression over the past couple of decades has more to do with a sense of loss due to our estrangement than with anything she may or may not have done in the past. Very enlightening and freeing.

On Dec 27 I had visitation and dinner at my ex-girlfriends place. My 'adopted' grand kids were there so it was a wonderful time. I just love those kids so much. : )

I suppose overall this was one of the best Christmas' I've had in many years.

I wish everyone here the best of the new year and thank you all for just being yourselves!

Brian
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