DEPRESSED...

I had a very tramatic miscarriage when I was 16 (I'm now 25)... The baby's father (who I dated for over a year) has recently found me on facebook and I spoke to him for the first time in 8 years... I had to relive all those painful memories that it took so long for me to get over... So I wrote a poem to try and help myself get some type of closure...
"TO MY UNBORN CHILD"

I'm writing you a letter, this is for my unborn child, wanna let you know I love you. If you didn't know I feel this way, how I think about you everyday, I have so much to say... Dear Lord, can you hear me? Tell me what to say... How do I explain the pain? It won't go away! How come I never got to hold you, or look you in your eyes? Never heard your heartbeat, or heard your first cry. Never felt your kicks, or had the chance to try to be your mother and show you all the love I have inside. Not even a chance to know your gender, you weren't just a fetus, if you could only see this, you were so much more to me! I can't picture your face, I can only try. Use my imagination, get a glimpse of your life... Were you a baby boy, my lil man, with your daddy's eyes? Would you have followed in his footsteps, or followed in mine? Were you a precious little girl, a reflection of your mama? Would you have acted just like me? A little pre-madonna. I do not know who you would've been, never got a chance to see. I was too young, maybe God had other plans for me. So he took you as an angel, he took you away from me. But I take comfort knowing you're in heaven watching over me. We will meet again one day my love, and I can finally see my precious baby that never got the chance to be.....
Mommy loves you! And I think about you every single day!!!