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I would get a second diagnosis and a thorough one. Bipolar is being over-diagnosed these days.

I have decided to I can heal myself from bipolar...if bipolar even exists. I am still on meds...but tapering off as they don't work for me. Not saying you should do this...I've been at the game for 15years and I'm trying something new. I use positive affirmations, good nutrition, vitamins B and C, and omega 3 fish oils. I have made lifestyle changes...cut back on hours at work, buying less, developing a 247 spiritual approach to life, having a support network of folks when I get twisted. I have also given up alcohol and cigarettes.

I used to go to counseling and group therapies...these were helpful. Bipolar is as real as I make it. I used to live and breathe it...using it for excuses to not work or for just being lazy or to get attention. Then I just popped the pills and forgot about it because we are truly much more than bipolar. We are infinite spirit beings. We can heal ourselves if we want to

I would get a second opinion. You are your own best health advocate. dDrs. Are not Gods. Question them, research on your own, tell them exactly what you are experiencing, journal to remember and take the notes to the dr. Remember that you are perfect just the way you are. There is nothing 'wrong' with any of us.

If you are having thoughts of suicide or self-harm go to ER immediately.
Joint a self-help group that deals with healing teen issues. Put your health first. You are healing now.

After diagnosis begins a grieving process, which starts with denial. It will eventually come around to acceptance. The time it takes to grieve for you lost life, your lost potential, your lost dreams will vary by person. Me...2 years?

Get to your psychiatrist, get help. Stick with the trying to find the right medications - it will probably take years. It will get a little worse(drug side effects) before it will get better.

Trying to go at this alone with put you in a dangerous place and set you up for a world of hurt. If we could just pullout selves together,suck it up, fake it til you make it .... then it wouldn't be a disease and there wouldn't be people diagnosed with it. Do you understand? It's not mind over matter. You can fight this only to some degree. With treatment, you might get to enjoy a symptom-free life.