feeling scared all the time!!!

i feel scared constantly from the moment i wake up till i sleep at night. it's a suffocating feeling. to get rid of this feeling i smoke up so i can numb myself and just try to sleep so my mind is not thinking or i'm not feeling for instance feeling low negative thoughts, feeling worthless. my bipolar is clearly at a low these days. i live with my brother and mother and i practically have no relationship with either of them brother i dont get along with and mother and i since i've been sick just drifted apart not that she's not there for me but i just cant talk to her. so i find solace in a just a few of my friends who can understand what i am going through but they are also too busy with thier lives they cant exactly be my theraists. i cant seem to understand where this fear and anxiety is coming from i need a reason because i cant live with this forever

Hi bipo,
I can see that you are just trying to feel good, but I have to agree with Linda, that long term other things will help reduce anxiety much better; it's just a game of trial and error with finding what ones work for you, personally. Anxiety is meant to be the most easiest emotion to manage. Slow deep breathing as low in your belly that you can, actually stretches out your diaphragm and gives a physical message of relaxation to your brain. Exercise is also good, warm showers and baths, doing yoga, and distracting yourself with activities that you find pleasant. That might provide you with a place to start to experiment what works for you. Healthy ways to reduce anxiety are usually portable and self-empowering, sustainable and have a long term management function. It's a journey, so go easy on yourself as you discover what works and what doesn't. Maybe join a group so you have some guidance from an instructor... an instructor can help us feel confident that we are "doing it right" and it also helps motivate us to discipline ourselves. Good luck with it! :)

thank you all for your support and replies, it means a lot. i'm just feeling stuck. others have also suggested meditation but i cant seem to concentrate. i do enjoy music. i guess i just have to push myself more.

thanks. you're right that does help i've tried it.