Remission over?

I've had slightly increased need for sleep and slightly increased appetite over the last 3 days.

Yesterday I crashed for about an hour. Today crashed pretty badly. My fiance took me out thrift saling and we had fun. But crashed again when I got home. I was feeling helpless.

At suppertime, my fiance lost patience trying to get supper ready - I had been sleeping/laying on the couch all afternoon. I don't stay where I'm not wanted, so I left. Stopped at a gas station for an energy drink and went for a long drive

Caffeine is a risk, but since I would otherwise to be calling in for an appointment and med adjustment on Monday, I thought it was worth it. I am planning on staying up all night since sleep deprivation elevates my mood. Both risk destabilizing, but at this point, I'm willing to take that risk.

So wish me luck. It is either a bump in the road or the end of a pleasant remission. I'll know in a few days.

I need to get back to the gym - I cancelled my membership - and improve my diet. I think falling off of those has impacted my stress tolerance.

This is affected by my computer crashing and working more. I need to get my data recovered and computer fixed to resolve that trigger. I think I can handle working more (2 more days a month) if I get back to strict self-care that I failed to maintained.

My hope is back and I've found my motivation to continue in self-care. I'm not in too deep so I'm hoping my current meds (Lamictal 100 mg and Klonopin 0.5 mg as needed) and self-care get me through this and back to complete stability.

Thank you Caren. <3 I am getting very sleepy. I am considering taking an early morning nap. I may have enough sleep deprivation already to work. I am calm and relaxed now (neither depressed nor elevated) but don't think I have enough stress tolerance to function well tomorrow. If I stay up and get more housework done I will likely have lower anxiety and better stress tolerance. I am just babysitting laundry machines and dishwasher, and listening to classical music. I'm probably tired from boredom!

Caffeine's worst effects for me are 12 hours after consuming. So I will have to wait and see what happens between 7:30 a.m. and 4:30 p.m. today. .... ??

Hey there my ultradian buddy :) Mood charting? I have been bad the last two weeks which isn't good. Just keep a close eye on the cycling/crashing.

One step at a time....

Don't beat yourself up about not working out etc. Just because you cancelled the gym membership doesn't mean a) you can't get another one? or b) while the weather is still tolerable you can't go for walks etc. I have learned the past year with my exercise and diet life change, that even a little exercise goes a long way.

I have been terrible with caffeine. Also drank a lot of alcohol last Friday night. Too much, gotta watch that. I have to say though I had a blast!! Which is important!!

We all do the wrong little things sometimes but as long as we pick ourselves back up and know what we have to do, then I think we're doing the best we can.

Sending you hugs,
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