Posted 12/19/2012 4:56 PM (GMT 0)
Hi everyone. Lots of new people here. I haven't visited in a long time but I see a few familiar screen names. Anyway I just wanted to say I'd been doing fairly well the past six months or so. Not as depressed and getting things done. My psychiatrists finally seemed to find a combination of medication that worked and I've been going to DBT for what seems like a long time. I got a cat. Or rather the cat I got rid of was returned to me against my will but we seem to be coexisting well. One might even say we've become... friends. I also somehow managed to wrangle a boyfriend. And though he has often been a light in the darkness he is most equally a catalyst for my neurosis, which comes upon me now and then, as it does now. He's moving in with me, you see, and the very thought of it has me very near vomiting every hour of the day. Stress vomiting. Like the cat. His soon-to-be constant presence and an upcoming trip to Florida seem a rather large pebble in my shoe of life which I am unable to shake lose. And so I have come back to the forum to not only check in but to expel these noxious thoughts from my churning mind. And having just done so I am already feeling lighter. However my recent bout of depression is not as easy to purge. How to remove myself from bed when I want nothing more than to drape about all day like a living blanket? How to feign interest in activities and normal human life so that my incoming boyfriend doesn't quite realize he's moved in with a layabout? How to get myself to go Christmas shopping and actually LEAVE the house? All these questions I have asked before and I know the answer I just don't like it. However asking, venting, and lamenting along with you fellows has a healing quality that no therapy can equal so I welcome your opinions, advice and beg for your sympathy like the attention glutton that I am. And I also welcome all those new members who have found this place. You could not ask for a better forum. Assuming not much has changed in the last half year, you will not find a more compassionate and honest group of people in all the internets.