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My mom is bipolar. She has been having paranoid delusions. She is seeing and hearing things that aren't happening. I convinced her to go to a local inpatient hospital to talk to them after we could not find a new psychiatrist who took her insurance after calling about 50. I convinced her with the help of my sister to admit herself. I promised her if she wanted to leave I would come get her. My understanding was that if she was not suicidal or homicidal they could not force her to stay.
Today she said that everyone was talking about her and the nurses were being mean to her. She said they were going to put her in a padded room and in a straight jacket. This facility does not do either of those things. We have a good friend who works there who told us this before she went in. So she wanted to come home. I checked into getting her out and now they won't let her leave. I know she needs to be there and I need to make her stay and at this point I really don't have a choice.
I don't know what to do. She says she hates me , she hopes God strikes me dead. I know she doesn't mean it but I don't know how to deal with the guilt. I also don't know how to deal with the constant looming threat of her calling and saying more hateful things. I am very sick and may have Lupus and already have UC in Feb I was in the hospital for 10 days. I just don't know what to do. Any advice or support?

This is so stressful for me. I am scared that my illnesses are going to get worse. This have gotten so bad with her. She had to be ,over to the most secure ward. She is refusing meds. She won't even move. I am terrified we did the wrong thing by taking her. I am also terrified that some day I will be like this. I never want to put my family thought this.

I have bipolar tendencies. I go manic maybe once a year but am depressed all the time. I have never had any kind of psychosis. But I also have UC and possibly Lupus and have been so sick lately. In Feb I was in the hospital for ten days. This is the most stressful time of my life. I am so scared. I just don't know what to do. She won't cooperate at all and she cannot get out till she gets stable. I am scared I did the wrong thing.

She is SAFE. Unhappy, but safe. (((hugs))) to you