Triggering Exercise

Hi,

Most of you will know what sustains me. Some of the things I am content with in my life are my: house, car, cat, duck, plants, internet connections, carer, meals of wheels, home nurse, social inclusion worker, GP, psychiatrist, psychologist.

What sustains me is remembering that body and lifespan is merely life form that comes and goes, and that unpleasant and pleasant experiences come and go within that lifespan. I optimise my safety, my health and my intrinsic enjoyment of life by living in the moment. I do what I can to created external enjoyment in my life by my: animals, plants, social contact, intellectual stimulation, escapism, laughing and treating myself.

My interests include psychology, sociology and politics. My values include respect and honesty

So for 19 days over Christmas and New Year, my services stopped. After nearly three weeks of coping remarkably well on my own, I was very depleted but happy to see my social inclusion worker yesterday.
She gave me this very harmful exercise to do, as made mandatory by management.

I had to confront the fact I had no family, no partner, that I'm terminally ill with physical health issues, have mental health symptoms, and my health is to the best it can be - and that my life is the best it can be. Well thanks for picking the scabs off guys and refocussing me on everything my trauma and illnesses have taken away from me, without any support.

I had nightmares last night and I am feeling a lot of grief. I'm trying to not let a harmful exercise dictated by people who know nothing about client experiences and needs undo me. I have emailed my social inclusion worker, asking for her to call me for support between clients.

I have rung a crisis line, just to talk it through a bit, and that helped somewhat.

I have fed back that I don't think it is advisable to mandate such confrontative exercises with vulnerable clientle after so long fending for ourselves without services... at least give us a chance to recharge our batteries and get some wind back in our sails before making us do unhelpful exercises for management's whims.

So, I'm just refocussing on my daily routine that helps me get by. One foot in front of the other. Cheers.

Yes, my support worker was with me, and she had fought management about the exercise. They still insist she inflicts it upon her clients... and she is very upset about this.

While it is a mandatory process, I am not going to let a new CEO trying to flex her muscles with a set of 5 harmful A4 pieces of paper bend me out of shape for too long. I'm stronger than that ;)

Hugs UA,

Jade xo

:)