Hi bykerchick,
Welcome to the forum! I am happy you joined us
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Please know that you are not alone. I'm sorry you are experiencing depression again.
How long have you been taking the meds for? Sometimes the meds take a couple of weeks before they start working. You may also have to try different meds ages before you find the right ones for you.
When I first started therapy, it didn't seem like it was helping. It took me a year before I felt like it was working. After a long while then I started to
open up to my therapist and talk. I'm sorry your therapist didn't seem helpful anymore. Have you thought about
visiting another therapist?
It can be tough when a relationship ends. It will take some time for you to heal and feel better. I know you mentioned that you push your friend away but if you have any, you can probably try sharing your feeling with them or even you family members. It can help. Feel free to post here as well. Posting does help you to feel better
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You should try taking baby steps and try doing little things daily to help you feel better. When you feel down, go outdoors for a little walk, watch a movie or go to the movies, read a nice book, listen to music, eat a nice meal, etc. Treat yourself to something nice because you deserve it!
I hope things will get better for you.
Take Care
UA