Hello Becky,
Welcome to the Bipolar forum
With Bipolar you experience lots of mood swings and ups and downs. Meds work differently for everyone. Sometimes we have to try different dosages and different combinations before we find the right ones. Also, after a while they may tend to stop working so we may need to switch and try something different and then switch back.
It's nice that you have understanding employers and they are very compassionate about
your situation. Mediation does help us to relax. When you begin to feel that you are starting to worry excessive, you can try journaling/writing, or even try doing something to distract yourself from worrying (watch a movie, talk a walk outdoors, call a friend and talk, etc.).
When you visit your therapist next, you should ask her about
what she's treating you for and let her explan it to you. Ask her any questions you may have.
I hope you will feel better.
UA