Hey everyone, super busy life going on. Still med free. Still have BP symptons. Its life. Good and bad.
STRESS: this is my huge trigger. Honestly i have to have the mentality of a buddhist monk to keep stress under control. But stress comes in two kinds, good stress and bad stress.
Bad stress for me is money and sex. (for those that dont know me im hugely anti drug/alchol) Ive worked hard to eleminate money stress by being carefull. Ive even moved an extra roommate into my house to help out with bills. All in all money flows in and out. But its not me mispending thats an issue. I have had to say something to my ex wife (who still lives there) about her paying her agreed upon share. I was calm, explained how her not paying was hurting me, and that if she continued not paying i would simply have to change the things we do together because i wouldnt have the money to do it. In short i tried to put the ball in her court so her decesions guided where we where going. After her getting mad for a few days the next pay check she was back on board. But i think this is why i cant really ever get close to people. They can hurt you too easily and carelessly and i just cant live like that. It may mean i have to be an observer the rest of my life. but i allways have the love of puppies to keep me company
Good stress is excersise, and doing things to help others. Nothing makes me happier then finding ways to help people out. Be it cutting an old neighbors lawn, being a light of happiness and positivity at work, or teaching self defense classes for free to people who cant afford those classes. Its been a huge boost to my life.
Sex has been very under control with only one slip this year. Hey, im human, i make mistakes.
Gotta run. Ill post more later.
Bill