Questioning bp diagnosis

Its very typical for bipolars to become stable on their meds and think they are well and so they stop the meds and get sick again. Yes, I have done this a few times and the result was always disastrous. But here I am feeling this way again.

What I dont get is I was never moody as a child. I was peaceful, quiet and content. That's how I feel now. Then I wonder if it was the three abusive marriages to bipolar men that caused me to show bp symptoms.

Now I live alone and am doing very well. My life is very manageable with no man. So I question the diag. On top of that I used to binge drink which could disguise itself as a mental illness. I don't do that anymore either.

So...at the same impass. No, I will not go off meds without talking to a dr. I probably won't go off meds at all based on my past experiences. It's just that I wonder if I'm a true bipolar. I have been hospitalized 5 times due to extreme stress causing unmanageable behavior...panic, depression, alcohol...I can't remember any mania but maybe once. But I was always married to majorly dysfunctional men.


I am thankful my meds work. It has taken a long time to get the cocktail right. So I'll just go with that for now. But have any of you ever felt so stable on meds and had a positive change in lifestyle that you feel all better?

RL, thanks for sharing.

I believe that having toxic relationships can cause these symptoms and signs in us. We may be happy and peaceful, but as soon as we let something negative like a toxic person in our life, or we are exposed to abuse, etc., it can change out moods and we may develop these signs due to what we may have had to endure.

UA