Paranoid Personality Disorder

Not really sure where else where I could post this...so i decided to post it here. I tried finding another forum that was strictly dedicated to this issue, but they are dead and nobody posts on them.

Anyway, here me out.

PPD is basically, from what I've read, a disorder in which a person is extremely paranoid of others....relationship wise. Friends, family, spouses, and what not. Basically "not trusting," or "suspicious" about them and what they do.

I am always suspicious of my friends. I hate it so much. I am always paranoid they talk about me behind my back....as well as form "conspiracies" against me. I am extemely jealous. I HATE IT. I don't understand how I can be jealous (not material item wise) while hating it. I wish I wasn't suspicious. I wish I wasn't jealous. I take acts of kindness in the wrong way...always thinking they're sarcastic. I always have the feeling that my friends use me for things. These things drive me crazy...basically to the point where I cannot function or think clearly. It's hard to complete things now because I am so crazy about those things.

I guess that's why I am posting this here. I go through inconsistant moods throughout the day....because of these things.

I really try to stop thinking this way....but it fails everytime.

HI Jon

I'm not sure what to tell you. I had a similar condition but in my case it was a learned behavior. From tragedies which occurred when I was young. It was a survival mechanism for me. But once again, this is may not apply to you whatsoever. One difference between you and me is I thought everyone had the same behavior as I did. You realize there is something askew. That is a tremendous move forward. I'm not sure when I started moving forward. I think it was when I got into business and had some very trustworthy customers. Not real sure. My attitude just slowly diminished.

Good luck to you and keep us updated.

Cap