penny,
welcome to hw and to this forum. we are a big (dysfunctional) family. while you're here you can rant and rave, share your good and bad experiences, cry, or help someone else.
the're not "misspellings:" the're typos and computer errors. 
didn't you take the computer course in reading almost anything? lol
one of the most hurtful symptoms of bp is "grandiosity." one example from my own experience is from last summer. i have chronic debilitating back pain and have just been prescribed morphene for the pain. last summer the riding lawn mower wasn't working and i decided that i could cut the grass with a regular power mower. i think i did three swipes. i couldn't move for two days. 
don't beat yourself up for having big ideas that you can't possibly fulfill. it's part of the disease.
i haven't been able to work since 1990 when i fell down a flight of stairs and hurt my back. i still mourn the loss. i will be 61 yrs old on the 29th and there's one thing that i have learned during this journey: we always do what we have to do in this life. i have hdd to do things in this life that i never drempt i would ever have to do. ego and propriety go out the window. survival mode is difficult and hurtful. but it will carry you to the other end.
hope this helps.
warren