Oh my g-d, I can hardly believe it. November 30, 1999, I cried all morning fearing the worst, and cried all that night in terror. "It's cancer," said the doctor. "You'll need your lymph nodes out, not sure if you can keep the breast or if it spread, you will probably need chemo....sorry, come back in a week for the path report and we'll know more." Wow, here we go....
Mixed emotions galore! If you had ever told me that I would someday hit the 5 year mark after breast cancer, I'd have never believed it. More than 5 years ago, frankly, I never thought I would get cancer, especially not breast cancer at 30! And until the last year or so, I could never be sure I would be a 5 year survivor.
I have always said that breast cancer at 5 years gets you a pat on the back and a move into the next statistical category...but no other guarantees. But 5 years is almost magical sounding to me, and only you all understand that.
Last year, within a couple weeks of the 'anniversary', I started getting my pain in the sternal area, and it scared the crapp outta me....this year I am looking ahead to only good things. And thinking I just might be on the winning side this time.
And I am so honored to have you all on my team too. I am humbled every day by you all, my sisters, and especially by our sisters that have passed away, by their heroics and every day bravery.
Looking forward to the next 5 years of this journey with you all...
Love, hugs and pink blessings-
Lori