blindsided by first mammo

I am new to this site and hoped i would never have to look for support in this area but it looks like i might. I am 37 and my doctor said lets go on and get a baseline mammo since i was getting close to 40. Usually, i put these things off but i went on and did it and WHAM! They found a 3cm "spiculated"? lesion and clusters of microcalcifications and to top it all off suspicious lymph nodes the film. Needless to say i was a wreck when the radiologist sent me directly to my dr and two days later had a biopsy which was Friday. I am supposed to get results Tuesday.

I got to read the radiologists report which probably wasn't the best thing i could do but i think it is helping me be realistic about the situation. I am in limbo right now with crying jags when i am alone and trying to stay busy in the meantime.

I just wanted to post this so i wouldn't be so afraid to come tuesday if the results are what i think they are. Thanks for listening.

Hello Sherry, So glad that you found us, but hopefully you will not have to stay.  One of the things we have found on this board is that we all have to wait.  Hurry up and wait.  Along with Gail you will find all of us waiting with you.  Please let us know as soon as you can about the results.  What you are experiencing is very normal.  Please share with someone that is close to you.  I hope that you find lots of support from family, friends, your doctors and their staffs, and from us here.  We want to support you and help you.  Reading the reports is for some a very good thing to do.  When you are ready, please study and research.  Knowledge is power and knowledge takes some of the fear away.  If you are having any questions find the answers, it helps.  Please do not be afraid to come to us.  We are hear listening all the time.  There is always someone here that can help you specifically and all of us to support you.  You will find lots of "breast friends" here.  We love you already and look forward to hearing your news.  We will be chanting B-9  (benign). Love, hugs, and prayers, Candy 

Hi Sherry-
You are smart, I can tell! I have the same mantra, to prepare for the worst and hope for the best...or even expect the best!

I was diagnosed a week before my 31st birthday 5 years ago, and there is no easy way to get this information. One day at a time, one test at a time. Worrying will not change the outcome, and will only make you nuts, so trying to stay busy is a great way to cope.

We'll be waiting with you and will be here to hold your hand or celebrate, whichever way it goes.

If you read our roll call post at the top, you can find out about us and our diagnoses, home states, etc.

Hang in there!
Lori

I can only second the words of the ladies here.  Knowledge is power and this is a great place to get that knowledge.  I am somewhat new here myself, having just been diagnosed in September.  This place has been a great help to me.  I've learned many things from these wonderful women.  Most importantly - you are not alone and ATTITUDE IS EVERYTHING! 

 

We are all here for you and hoping it turns out to be nothing.  You sound like you have things in the right perspective, so keep it up!

 

Hugs,

Hi Sherry

 

I was 38 last year when my husband found a lump.  I really related to you.  I have just gone through the treatments and now, a year later, am on the other side of it, and doing fine.  I'm hoping they find what we call a pork chop bone in there tomorrow instead of what you're fearing, but just in case, know that you'll have us there thinking of you, with you, ready to support you. 

 

I really used this site, and it really helped me.  I live in rural new york, and there isn't much around.  The women on this site really helped me, my husband wasn't as supportive as yours, you're a lucky woman.  I have a son, too, and he had a hard time with it, but we talk about it in the past tense now. 

 

Please feel free to post about what you're dealing with.  Let us know tomorrow what's up. 

Sherry

I know exactly how you feel.  I found a lump about a few weeks ago.  Yesterday I went to get an exam and the doc is sending me to a surgeon.  I'm scared to death they are going to find something.  I will be scheduled for a mammo soon I hope.  I've been searching online all morning trying to find a place where I can talk to others who have been thru this and now I've found it but I can't figure out how to post.

My name is Tammy.

Mary K

Thank you for replying so quickly.  I'm trying to keep a positive attitude.  I guess it is a good thing that I'm going to a surgeon, then I'll know for sure.  I was looking at it like oh no this is a bad thing, but really its a good one, going to the surgeon, I mean.  I'm not sure what's going to happen, but I just know I can't afford to miss any work.  I'm single and self supporting, no insurance, as of yet, and ....need I go on? 

Thanks and I'll keep in touch. 

Tammy

MaryK

Thanks, that's good to know.  I do have a question.  I know I posted an answer to Sherry but how do I start a new one that everyone can read?   Tammy

I just wanted to check in with you all before I go into my surgeon this afternoon. Has anyone out there ever felt in their gut what the results are and were you right?

 

These last few days have been absolutely terrible but since coming to this site, i feel a sense of peace that i haven't had since Wednesday. This may change this afternoon but knowing i have a place to vent and cry and scream, helps so much.

 

And yes, Mary, many kudos to my doc who sent me. I always complained about him being so conservative everytime we went to him. It always seemed he was overdoing tests and referrals. Well, lol, I will NEVER complain again. He will be getting a special christmas goodie bag from me this year.

 

I will post my results later today or possibly tomorrow. Thank you all for your prayers.

 

Counting my blessings, one by one.

 

*********************Sherry***************

Tamaralynn, hang in there this waiting is for the birds. I was lucky. I went for my mammo and they set me up with a surgeon that very day but only because I told them that i wanted to be seen NOW. I am not usually that aggressive but it paid off. Mammo was on Wed am and surgeon was that afternoon and biopsy was Friday. i get results today.

Please keep posting like i am even though i do not have a diagnosis yet but it has made the waiting bearable. It seems i have become obsessed with this disease and want to talk. Family and friends are wonderful but they can't relate and they don't want to talk about it until they know its there sometimes not even then.

I am so sorry you may be facing this with the situation you are in. But there is help out there and even if i find out i don't have cancer, I will be checking in on you here.......Keep posting..............Sherry

Yes Sherry, I knew going into surgery that it would be breast cancer, but then I had had two benign lumps biospied and going into surgery for those I had not heard from the surgeon what I heard the last time. I knew and told everyone that it would be cancer, and of course everyone said no way do you know. But I did. And altho I am not a nurse, I had half the training before leaving for marriage back in the 50s when you weren't allowed to marry. LOL. I had OR training and worked after leaving as an OR tech, so I knew what I was dealing with. We have some nurses on board here, too. Most active are Mikki and Connie. Connie has been having some treatment and problems lately and hasn't posted a lot. Mikki has a website listed under her posts, so check that out, too. Good luck at your appointment. Not knowing where you are I don't know your time vs my time. I'm in TX. And several of us have had a peace about the whole experience. Hugs, MK