Hi Kathy and Bernadette... thanks for responding -- I love having someone to talk to who understands. I sometimes think that people in my life get tired of me talking about all of this, I don't share my feelings as often as I'd like because of it.
Kathy you're so right - when I'm busy I don't dwell on all of this negativity. I find that night time is the worst especially if I see or hear about someone dying from cancer. I really get worked up but I'm trying to give myself a break. I think having cancer twice in 17 months has made me more scared of another recurrence than I would be if I'd had a couple of years between. I'm sure I'll feel better after I have the PET scan.
Bernadette you make me laugh because that's exactly what I do -- as soon as I get in the car off comes the wig! I work in a small office (5 people) and I'm starting to take my wig off in the afternoon and wear my cap. By 2:00 I've had it and they all understand.
I haven't been on the site for awhile and I missed hearing from you too. Sounds like you're getting through all of this with flying colors! Hooray for you. Tell me about the ovary stuff. I know that breast cancer survivors have a higher incident of ovarian cancer but is your doctor recommending surgery? And what's going on with your lungs and your spleen?
As far as the radiation goes -- what I determined was it's not as bad as the chemo, but it does wear a person down to have to go EVERY DAY. I should tell you that my first visit was hard on me. I had no clue as to what to expect plus the room where the machine is was a little overwhelming, and everyone has to be out of there when you get your treatment. That scared me and I actually cried, boy did I feel dumb. It doesn't hurt when they do it and my techs were so patient that they took extra time to explain all of it so I wouldn't be frightened.
On a high note -- I'm grateful to have another Christmas to share and I'm going crazy decorating my house. I love all of the lights and decorations!
You guys are the greatest! Thanks for being there.
Love,
Donna