Oncology appointment this Wednesday

This is my first official follow-up with my medical oncologist,...this Wednesday.

I know this is a long-term relationship we have with our onco's.....so I'd be lying if I said I felt calm about this whole thing.

Truth is, I'm starting to get those familiar butterflies in the stomach....









M.

Thank you for that!

I'm starting to get a little wiggy and my emotions are running high. Started this morning when I was checking my calendar (as I do every Monday) to get a sense of my appointments and times....

Maybe seeing it in print?

It's been on my calendar for 3 months so it isn't a surprise. But as it draws closer, I guess I'm getting nervous??

I appreciate the kind thoughts!










M.

I really do not like my medical oncologist. I didn't like her when we first met, and every appointment thereafter, I just,.....don't like her.

It doesn't help that it's a bit of a drive, then I had to wait an hour to see her (and with my CP issues, that took me out of action for the rest of the day, I was in too much pain to sit at my desk and log on).

My surgeon and rad onco really speak highly of her, and that's the only reason, at least for now, I'm sticking with her.

She's very cold and distant. After all that, she spent an abrupt 4 minutes with me and ushered me quickly out the door without a 2nd look or goodbye.









M.

My rad onco RN, who I became quite close with, and we still stay in touch,....Well I discussed this with her way back in the beginning during my rad sessions, telling her how I felt about my med onco. SHE said that in her opinion, I should change docs. That this is a long term relationship and I should feel safe and comfortable. She reminded me that there ARE others out there. (I go to Dana Farber).

But, my actual rad onco (because of course I told him too) said that she is one of the best and even if her bedside manner isn't to my liking, he reminded me how swift my appointments will be with her and if can buck up for the small amount of time I'll actually interact with her,....that she is worth it.

She hasn't made any miscalculation, she's direct, has never tried to "force" a med on me....She's the coldest thing this side of Frozen with the personality of a boar and doesn't overtly anyway display any sense of warmth or compassion.

I lucked out royally with my surgeons, everyone I saw and treated with for BC, the rad techs were the best, everyone's been a peach. She's the only hiccup in an otherwise smooth experience.

My rad onco was sooooo compassionate, caring, he was delicate and still direct, he had a heart so big that he wore on his sleeve, he had feelings while maintaining professional.

This med onco, I feel like she's just going through the motions or something.....Like I said, I'm really hoping that she was just so abrupt in speaking with me, so curt,....and so quick in our 4 minute visit, that it was just because I seemed to be doing well on the Femara without s/e's to complain about.....and she's got a host of other people with problems bigger than mine.

I dunno. She isn't rude exactly, just cold. Pssh.








M.