New to this thread, Benign Lumpectomy Left Breast in 2011

Angie from Phoenix, AZ, new to this thread but am on 4 or 5 other ones including Hypothyroidism, Fibromyalgia, Bi-Polar, Chronic Pain, Scoliosis and there isn't one for Brain Cancer although I'm in a holding pattern for that after 1 Craniotomy in 02(Meningioma), Gamma Rad. in 08 and again in 13 with 2-4 still present and accounted for. I had a Lumpectomy in my left Breast in 6/2011 came back benign was told not to worry as i have alot of scar tissue from being large breasted, was a B-cup went up to a C after 1st child in 1991, stayed a C after 2nd child, up to a D in 2009 after a Radical Hysterectomy 8 months following 1st "safe" Radiation Treatment for 2nd Brain Tumor in 12/2008 and have been a D-DD depending on weight ever since. I'm 5'0 so the difference between 145 and 160 is a whole other cup for me. Anyway 6/16 due for Mammogram and recently found 3 or 4 new Lumps on Left Breast and scared ****less. I've been living with the Brain thing for 14 years and my Neurosurgeon already knows I'm ok with surgery but NO CHEMO! my kids are 26 and as of tomorrow my son will 21 and my Granddaughter 2 on the same day and my kids know the Brain Cancer drill too. But I know or I've heard Breast Cancer is a whole different Beast. I'll be 48 on 6/14 and I'm not ready to die even though I know I've been living on borrowed time for 14 years. I hope this helps explain, I'm a Recovering Addict/Alcoholic, I've been Clean and Sober since 6/7/2004 and I can't die with a needle stuck in my arm too high to recognize my own kids and that's Chemo will do to me. I'm not in charge of anybody but me, so what you do is none of my business, but I'm terrified and you guys no way more about this than I do and I open to anything that doesn't involve me dying loaded. Thank You.