Just need somewhere to go

I'm not sure what I might have but constant insomnia, crashes of energy, and so on have led me to at least chronic fatigue syndrome. Getting answers from doctors is near impossible and I often end up suggesting diagnosis to them that turn out correct so I haven't bothered to figure it out in detail yet. A psychiatrist treats me for insomnia.

My other forum changed design and it's horrible to use, near impossible on my lower resolution laptop until I got this new one, so I went searching and I am here. I just need somewhere to post occasionally. A few days ago when I signed up I needed somewhere I could tell people I felt like crying over my exhaustion and limitations and that I was determined not to. Well I shot veiled insults back to the person who caused the depressed feelings and then "went dark". When my people limit is reached I go dark where FB, phone, aim... are all silenced if not fully off. I played a game, I watched a show which I had to replay parts several times because I kept getting lost in thought, and I reminded myself that I am doing everything I can possibly do so whether other people understand or not is their problem. Also that I told someone the day before I would not cry anymore. I ran out of fight for an evening but not forever. Today I hiked 9 miles. Did not accomplish that shower or moving the 10g fish tank though.

It's 5 am and I'm going to try to go back to sleep.

I was sleeping 2 hrs a night. After I caught up sleep on meds but stopped them due to side effects I didn't sleep for 3 days and then for 5 days and showed up in the ER going "give me anything!". I got tossed around to my new psychiatrist and was on 800mg of seroquel at one point when I said this is a dead end road. I more than doubled my weight and I had a back infection that was not noticeably spiking my white cell count much so it floated around causing random inflammation for 3 years. My heart wouldn't go below 100bpm and made 160 at one point. My heart and lungs have improved. The ER had basically written me off as a hypochondriac for coming in with hyperventilation but I think it was lingering effects. Muscle mass is coming back. I still have chronic UTIs and similar things. Some parts of me are always in irritation.

I have tried notebook pages worth of meds. Unless you have something really unique I'd rather not get suggestions. Sorry but I just get it constantly when I mention I have insomnia and it wears on my energy confirming I've tried everything everyone mentions. Prescription and not. Finally ditched the antipsychotics.