If Only!!!!

   Hi, thanks for the nice words, they mean a lot when you're alone trying to cope... our illness takes everything that makes us human and leaves us frustration, depression and a lack of self-worth... it makes it hard to keep going sometimes... the lucky ones have a caring family or loved ones to give them strength, the rest of us have to try to cope alone... it's so hard when you don't have anyone to share with or even someone to talk to to try to take our minds off the way we feel constantly... i have a caregiver 25 hrs a week, the rest of the time it's me, my two dogs and two turtles... on the good days i eat one meal, the bad days i don't have the energy to cook or eat, and it's rare that i eat anything when my caregiver is here... i usually eat late at night just to put something in me... i'm in constant pain from the cfs, a good many bones were broken in a car accident and i have arthritis in the feet, the whole spine, and my neck is degenerated to the point that they won't touch it unless it affects major organs... and just to make things interesting i got bitten by a neighbours dog and got a chronic bone infection this summer... i didn't think i could feel worse, but the bone infection sure changed my mind for me... it's no use going to bed until i'm sure i can sleep, the pain makes it impossible to get comfortable, and i only sleep a few hrs a night, the pain keeps waking me up. i'm usually up by 5-6 am, i can't handle staying in bed... sounds like fun ,eh... they say that God doesn't send us more than we can handle, but i'm not sure sometimes... i came real close to giving up lately, that's why i'm looking for a little support and friendship... i'm getting depressed and i don't have a safety valve... i'll be housebound in a couple of weeks until april/may... i try to accept my fate, but it gets so frustrating sometimes... i try to smile, but it's getting hard... but, i'm too stubborn to give up, so i'm still trying... i grin as much as i can, it's way more fun than crying... if i can do it, so can all you out there... we have to keep trying... and when we can't, hopefully we can get online and find someone to give us a little boost... that's what friends do... thanks again for listening...

Please please read You Can Heal Your Life by Louise Hay. It will change your life if you want it to.

Also read Heal Your Body by the same wonderful author for more in depth health solutions. Relief is waiting for you! My own life is now completely different and more than I could have dreamed of for myself.

Go ahead and check them out at Amazon. Read the reviews.

Many blessings, friend.