Posted 5/19/2009 9:03 PM (GMT 0)
My wall is God. Right now, I feel everything as far as the world goes is against us. To look at our circumstances, the only thing right is God.
I have no money coming in besides, and pray daily for physical and financial miracles.
I can not see myself working. I did, but the other day when I woke up screaming in pain, from I believe a muscle spasm--I thought, how could I hold a job when my leg pain scales lately have been on a scale of 12 and my husband is so sick and might have MS. So, I give it to God. I do believe I need the right meds to get me out of this pain...but that's another topic.
I have no problem admittting I can't work and would like disability but I don't think I qualify. Yet when I hear of the acheivements old classmates are making, I can't help but wish I could turn back time. Again--going off topic.
This board is the best, I will always say that. I know I'm not here as much as others, do forgive me, maybe it's my way of denying.
Yet I pray for board members to be healed and get relief.
Blessings.
PS-I don't believe God is punishing us, I sometimes feel useless, worthless, then I think that's a lie from the devil.
If anyone knows how I can apply for any aid, please let me know. I will add my email to the left. Thank you.