end of my rope

Oh CS....Things may seem like they won't ever get better, but they will.  It takes some of us years to find a good Pain Dr. that understands and can actually help...Why did the shrink say you shouldn't take pain meds?  Is it because you abused them?  Don't stop at one Dr. or even 2 of them...Keep on until you feel comfy enough to put your life in their hands...I mean that literally.

Dr.'s act like they have to trust us....I think it is the other way around.  We are the ones in pain...We are the ones giving them all of our troubles...We are the ones that try to trust them.... I say find one that's going to treat you like a regular human being.....not an addict.

Pain sucks!!! not only because it hurts, but because of all the other crap that comes along with it.  We feel guilt about having to take the pain meds...we feel selfish because of the attention we demand...we feel alone because nobody understands us...and we feel despair, like it will never get better...

I think having a Dr. treat us like humans is not a lot to ask for.

Me.

CShelp, All you can do is be truthful and trust that he is not looking for excuses but really wants to help. As the time draws closer, don't allow the darkness to crouch in. When you allow all the doubt to come in and then meditate on the doubt, you defeat yourself. You know the truth. If you are emotional strong when you go in then that will help the doctor to know you are sincere and truthful. You have been on my mind and I know the feeling of hopelessness and fear. Many years ago after I was released form a psych hospital where I was locked up after a non accidental incident, I feared that everywhere I went people would find out and then I feared what would happen. What would people think of me? How would they judge me, by something out of my past or who I was then. I learned that life does go on. You have to believe in yourself. I will be getting home late Friday afternoon and when I am up to it I am looking forward to hearing a good report. We all will be waiting for it.I agree with Uniquelyme, Doctors need to treat us with respect.

Cshelp, You are stronger than you realize because you survived. I agree with you that at some point you have to find the right person to walk through the past with you. From what you have expressed in various posts that is still an area that you need to deal with but at the right time with the right person. I believe that every time you are faced with this, it is like pouring salt in an open wound and when people who are supposed to be helping us end up the ones who pour the salt in the wound, it is hard to open up to others in a trusting way. You are a survivor and I as well as others here believe you can and will win yet another battle. Blessings!

cshelp, You are in my thoughts. I wish you well. I am sorry you are having a hard time. You have been through alot. And thanks to this cp, you have that to deal with on top of everything else. You are alot stronger than you think you are. You are going to get through this. Keep telling yourself that over and over. We have faith in you. Take it easy and try to relax as best you can. I will continue thinking about you.
Anice

Hi everyone,

I went to the doctor, he was very nice. I wanted to tell him everything and I tried, but he was talking and examining me. I did tell him about running out of meds 3 days early and the other pain docs. He suggested things and I told him I wanted to get better. I have a MRI scheduled Wed AM and then he will do an injection and if it doesn't work he would suggest a SCS. He actually looked at me like I was human, but I am not getting my hopes up.
cshelp

Hi CShelp, that sounds so wonderful. Fingers crossed for the MRI, lets hope he really comes through for you. Golitho.

cshelp
I am sorry I have not posted more, I have been reading this thread and keeping up on the post. Your new Pain Doctor does sound promising, I know it is hard not to get your hopes up, but you know maybe just maybe this Doctor will be a real keeper! I do hope so for your sake! You deserve to have a good caring Doctor taking care of you! I also hope that your MRI goes well!

You know cshelp I agree with fatherjohn sometime when you are stronger and have the right person with you, you can confront your past! You are to see a new Psych Doctor sometime latter on aren't you? Well maybe after that you can deal with the things in your past. You know the stuff you mentioned in your post?,You know, you must not be to hard on yourself about any of that! You are a different person now! And it is the person you are now, that is who the Doctors are dealing with not the person you were three years ago!. And a Good Doctor will realize that! I hope that all makes sense?
Anyway I do hope you are doing OK. There are allot of us who really do care about you!
I do wish you only the very best cshelp!
White Beard

CS,
It sounds like you're on the right track! I'm sorry I haven't been around for you, I have no excuses but I have read your post and have been praying for yo to finally get a good doc! Hang in there girl, things will get better!>> I know they will!!!
Your Friend,
Pete.

Cshelp,

How are you doing?

XXOO
Patti

Cshelp,
I'm sorry for not remembering, but are you on an anti-depressant? If that's what you're going to the psych md for, your PCP might be able to start you on something sooner, although if you think it's more complicated a psychiatrist is more specialized in the meds.

Those double shifts can't possibly be helping. But I have a hunch you know that.

Hugs,

PaLady

Cshelp,

Keep us posted....hope you have a good weekend working! 

XXOO
Patti