Dear Mike!
Good morning! *warm huggs* How was you night, last night? Were you able to calm your mind enough to get some restfull sleep? Probably not.....but it would sure be nice if you could find time to go sit in the park or tire yourself out so you can get some good restfull naps or sleep in. Surley by now you are exhausted. *hugg*
Did I ever tell you about the time I thought the kidds were dying? No?!?! Well, let me tell you about the adventure that my poor brain took me on. Oh the thinking we can think when we just dont know what is going on!
I woke up early! I had alot to do! Got the girls breakfeast set up on the breakfeast bar. I hopped in the shower while calling for the girls to wake up and eat. While I was in the shower....
My littlest bumblebee says, "Mom...MOM! OH MOM!"
"What? Why arnt you eating, we have got to get going bumblebee!"
"I don't feel so gooooood....."
And just at the moment I peek out from the shower curtian she is vomiting blood. Everywhere. I jump out of the shower. Spring in to action!
"OOOooOOh bunny, it is okay. Just breathe. lean over the toilet. Im going to get the phone and some raggs, dont worry. Mommy is right here. Hold on."
I slap on clothing, grabb raggs, call 911. Scoop up the blood and put it in a sanwhich bag. Wait for the ambulance! They show up, my clothes are drenched because I never dried off. I hand them the offensive blood in a bag and off we go to the emergency room!
Rosie finally stopps vomiting. We are all noticing at this point that it is awfully bright colored red. Never the less, we are all proceeding the utmost urgency! By the time we get to the hospital my little Bee has finally stopped vomiting. She tells me she is tired and thirsty. So I get her apple juice and hot blanket. As she is settling down in my lap, we are all beginning to notice a strange "sugary" smell??? But we wait patiently for the doctor to come from the other hospital. While sitting and waiting I am sure she has lukemia, maybe some strange and horrible thing is happening to her stomach, what if her organs shut down??? And WHY isnt the doctor taking so long to get here! What if she has to stay in the hospital the rest of her little life!?!!
Then the strangest thing happened......
My oldest Bumblebee says" Mommy I am STARVING!"
I said,"Didn't you eat your breakfeast?"
She says," No Mommy, all we had for breakfeast was a whole bag of valentine heart lollipops. Can we eat now??"
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Yes! A whole bag of bright red heart shaped lollipops. There was atleast 30 or so in there.
...Noone is dying.
.....the doctor comes in laffing so hard!!! He huggs them and asks if they ever saw a magic show?! If not he will show them his master Magic skills! (It really was a cute magic show)
Thank goodness, the bills arrive and we are only charged for the medical equiptment costs. Noone charged for their time. So how much does one bag of red heart shaped lollipops cost?
508.00
So no. You are not silly for thinking the worst. At times I think my mind is plotting against me. We just dont agree on much, my brain and I. So I completly understand your brain making you think of all the things that could possibly be going on with you (frankly rather scary) Lump on your chest. But, I do know you pretty well, and I worry you probably havnt slept much the last few days. So, try to get to a point where you can rest somewhat if you can. Hopefully the doctor will have answers for you tomorrow. You are ALWAYS in our prayers here.
*warm hugg*
dani