Catching up

Hi all,

It's been so long that I hesitated for a moment on my username and password. It's been too long.

As a "recap" for new members.... I gave birth to surprise identical twin girls last September after a horrendously difficult pregnancy.

October, November, December and 1st part of Jan were as difficult as the pregnancy. Recovering from a c-section plus having chronic pain was terrible. Most of all, I was hit w/ terrible post-partum depression/anxiety. To keep me from going truly over the edge, I was put on a variety of meds. While they helped me from being hospitalized, they also erased my memory of the last four months. Thankfully, though, I woke up one day in January; got off the meds I needed to; and I was better (mentally).

So, I'm bonding w/ the girls now... and they are a joy. The boys are doing well, too. Life goes on - even when you think it won't. Physically - things are the same w/ me... but that's just something I accept and know is a part of me, probably for the rest of my life.

Anyway, that's my update and why I haven't been around. So many of you supported me during this crazy last year of mine - and I thank you so much for that and am eternally grateful. I've made lifelong friends here... and am so thankful for that.

To everyone that I don't know here yet - welcome. Sorry you have to be here due to chronic pain... but it's a wonderfully supportive group...

I'll try to post again as I can.... Life still and will be forever hectic. But I'm around again and reading as I can.

Love to you all --Tina

   Hey Tina Girl , Its so very great to see you back and posting . I know you've faced and overcome incredible challenges recently and you've dealt with them , Bravo !! You demonstrated incredible courage  and its so great to have you back with the family , please keep us updated as you can , God bless you and the girls and whole family !! Mikel

Tina,

So happy to see your update!! I have been thinking about you and wondering how those new bundles of joy were! Sorry that things got a little rough there but really glad they are getting better! Take care of you hun!

Hugs,
Beckey

Hey Tina, so nice to hear from you. Sorry you have been having a tough time. I hope things start evening out for you soon. Congrats on the girls, I bet they are a handful! Please post some pictures when you get a chance. Take care and I hope you keep posting. We are all here to support you.

I'm so happy to see you back and so glad things are getting better for you now. I know it must have been very difficult for you with all you have on your plate. Sometimes I think loosing a memory may not be all that bad. Now you can concentrate on making new memories with those you love.

I look forward to catching up some time soon.

  

Good Morning Tina!

   *warm hugg* I just cant tell you how happy I am to hear from you. I have often wondered how you were doing and what has been happening. I don't like to pry and bother folks when I know they have a lot going on. So, it is so good to hear from you.

     My heart sank a bit as you were talking about your fight with PPD. I had a spurt of PPD myself shortly after my oldest daughter was born. It was a tremendous struggle because I was breastfeeding at the time. I ended up only breastfeeding my oldest for 9mos. I needed help. I will always feel guilty for stopping breastfeeding early. On the other hand, I was grateful for the relief. I cannot remember the name of the anti depressant, but it was low dose and the doctors had told me I could continue feeding her. In my heart, I thought it was too risky. I was able to taper down and come off the PPD meds by the time she turned 1yr old. Still... to this day I shudder at the thoughts of what I had experienced. I took meticulous care of her every need. I was frightened to take her anywhere. I couldn't stand for anyone to touch her for fear someone might drop her or get her sick. I kept us both in extremely clean conditions. I was just over come with fear to my very core! Oh! My heart goes out to you. Goodness, I am so sorry you had to over come PPD.  *hugg* and worse those meds they put you on sound terrible.

    I hope you are able to get enough rest, I can imagine you have your hands full! Take care and know you are in our hearts.

*hugg*
   dani