This is my first post! I have been in severe pain for 4 years now. I have spinal stenosis, chronically degenerated discs from C3/4 through to C6/7 and significant foraminal narrowing bilaterally at all levels. Most of my pain refers into my left shoulder are and hand, and to quote an old thread I read on her, I feel like I have a baseball in my shoulder!
I have had 3 lots of facet joint injections, over 100 trigger point injections, a double microsurgical foraminotomy on the left at C5 and C6, 3 nerve root blocks, acupuncture, physio, soft tissue trigger point therapy, deep tissue massage and 2 weeks ago a cervical epidural. According to all the specialists and consultants I have seen the scans and x-rays of my neck look like those of an 80 year old, I turned 41 a couple of months ago. I have had all the usual medications, co-codamol, tramadol, oxycodone and diazepam. Nothing works and I have not had a pain free day in the last 4 years.
My condition is incurable, and it would appear also untreatable! Because it is not visible many people tend to think I exaggerate how much this affects my life. I know I am not alone in my suffering, and I know there are many people in far worse situations. I have stated all the facts relating to my condition but I spend as little time as I can feeling sorry for myself, although some degree of that is inevitable I think.
One of the worst aspects of my situation is trying to deal with the British system of benefits, this has caused me more stress and anxiety than my health problems ever could and I pity anyone who has to deal with these people! I'm not exactly sure why I'm writing this, certainly not looking for sympathy or pity, but perhaps some empathy is possible here? It is not easy to accept that I will be restricted in my physical activities for the rest of my life.
I used to be a pretty successful showjumper and now I am not supposed to ever even get on a horse again, this makes me very sad and while I am learning ti live with it I don't think I will ever be ok with it. Fortunately I also have academic passions and I am in the 2nd year of my psychology degree with the open University, currently I have a 2500 word thematic analysis due in in 6 days and a 2000 essay by the end of the month, but it's not easy to write on the days when I can only lie down!
Anyone who has read all of this deserves my gratitude, and you have it. I guess I just wanted to get it out of my head just for a little while. I would like to wish all my fellow chronic pain sufferers the very best of luck with future treatments.
(Edited for eaiser reading) Thanks! SE
Post Edited By Moderator (Screaming Eagle) : 5/11/2011 8:53:03 AM (GMT-6)