2y4t said...
Hi beck, I injured my back in April, since that day, even now, the pain and muscle spasms have only afforded me 4hoursto of sleep at the most, but generally 2 to 3 hours. Get an hour, and Im up for two, get another hour, and I'm up again, get another hour, and my son wakes me up, and he's just too little to be left unsupervised once he's up.
Every night, I go to sleep, wondering if I'm going to be too tired to wake up when he does and him get into something, or go out the front door, and something aweful happen. I think that though racks my brain for at least an hour each night while I sit waiting to get tired enough to go to sleep.
I did alot of lonely miles as a truck driver for 4 years, and I found that my brain is the scariest place on the earth if I let it take over. I made a lot of money, but the solitude, even with cell phones, was driving me insane, plus, at the time, I was 24 and single, that was also wearing on me, and is wearing on me again these nights, as I feel responsible to find a real mother for my son.
Lets face it, my brain is a bottomless pit of worries if I let it be, and this forum has been a life saver since I found it two weeks ago, gets me out of my head, or at least lets me think productively again. If I'm not careful, I know my brain can take me to that same dark place I was at when I came off the road 4 years ago, and having my style of thinking doesn't aid in that, I have aspergers, so when I think about a problem, my mind is instantly able to come up with every possible detail, of every possible scenario for the next 100 years. I think thats why my apptitude for legal issues and mechanical things is so high, I catch details that no one else does.
Sorry for rambling, maybe my little novel will give you a minute out of your own mind, hope you can get some sleep, I still have 2 or three more hours before my body reaches super tired, where its worth trying to lay down, having been a trucker, I had to learn about my tired levels very thoroughly, and it has been pretty useful, since when I lay down, my legs start spasming through the soma, and I won't sleep if I'm not tired enough. Good night, and God bless.
I totally agree with you. I wish I could turn my mind off during the night. But Thank God for this forum and others to me busy..Tonight I woke up @2am and I am still up @6am I will try to go to sleep in about an hour...Take Care Beck