withdrawal gone I think

Firstly, I just wanted to let everyone know and for those that read the posts that this forum is wonderful and for the new forum members it is a life saver sometimes when you have no where else to go for support or your awake in the wee hours of the morning in pain.  I am a wee hours of the morning person. I have a support system, but if I didn't this would be my lifeline.

Update: My withdrawal is subsiding thank God for that part.  My pain is not. It's terrible!!! I have updated my profile as things have changed due to another MRI and an ultrasound.  You can review that part in my profile if you like.  I have a question though.  I noticed there are ups and downs going through this withdrawal off my pain medicine.  Yesterday I was like a monster and went off on my daughter about how angry I was with what happened to me.  Does this kind of behavior go on very long.  She was empathetic but I felt bad.  I notice my pain levels are thresh-holding getting really intense and then slowing down. My pain yesterday was so bad I wanted to just go to sleep and wake up like a normal person. I think about what it is like to not worry about pain and be normal again. Crying all day long in these gusts of pity. I guess.  I have never been through this in my life. This is the worse thing I think that has happened to me.    

My bp is staying level at 170s systolic to flying up to 190s. I have had it down to 145 systolic a few times. My PCP didn't do anything about it right now.  (hmmmmmf) He thought I was just nervous. I e him again on the 5th of September. I will once again have someone with me. My youngest daughter is coming out to Virginia to be with me also.  That is a comfort to me, too. She is worried about the cardiac issues.  My oldest daughter is going to be calling cardiologists here in VA to hopefully get me some help. I still have good insurance for now and maybe someone will take me.

I got a call yesterday and found out he referred me to a pm clinic and they left a voicemail. I called and spoke with a fairly decent, professional lady that did tell me she actually reviewed all of my medical records and said I really needed some help with pain and therapy, but couldn't take me because of the issue a couple weeks ago which seems to be happening alot. She was suppose to call my PCP and let Dr. Miller know, and they think I should go to a neurologist based near the hospital in Norfolk. This doctor is a Neurologist who is suppose to be very empathetic with pain patients.

Just an update and a special thanks to everybody that hung in there with me.  I am praying and keeping my hopes up.  After reviewing some of the threads, it might be a good idea to pray more. 

Hang on to hope.  I am praying for everybody. I have to ly down now and try to get pain under control.

grannytoo

 

So glad to hear the nasty withdrawl seems to be subsiding for you. I admire your perseverance to make it through that and still have such a pleasant attitude.

Hope the pm will be able to help you. It sounds like you have a good doctor who is looking out for you.

granny,

glad to hear you are over the worse, perhaps, of the withdrawal symptons, but sorry to hear of your increase of pain. Also, that is some serious BP problem you have, hoping your doctor's have a good control of that for you. With all my woes, BP has never been an issue. I have the opposite problem, it's sometimes too low, and it accounts for dizzy spells I get from time to time. I had a reading as low as 100/50 recently. Typical for me is 120/65. And of course, I don't take any BP meds.

Glad your daugther is coming to be with you. I miss my only daughter, she lives 220 miles from here, and we are only able to visit a few times a year.

Good luck to you, hope this neruologist can help you with the pain part.

David in SC

Screaming Eagle, I have seen you on the forum when I went back to Iilinois back in 2011 to see family. I think. Hi and below is my days in pain wording for you.

It was awful, for me and i was not on near what a lot of people are on in the forum. I pray to God this surge in doctors dropping cold turkey patients who are going through such chronic pain. My meds were Oxy 5 mg which i started for the first time in my life in 2010. (They were okay but I still had bad flare up with widespread body pain, but I just took it with a grain of salt.) Back to the subject, sorry. I went through the sweats, nasty nasty pain enough for me to cry. And I did this without trying to drive my kids crazy. I stayed in my room with my little Schnauzer. I had weird dreams, wake up in the middle of the night in bad pain, headaches (still have....but it may be this bp issue) yes, flu like symptoms, anxiety out the ying yang. A shaky feeling inside my body, and stress factors that won't quit. I am sure I am still in a little withdrawal.

I don't want everyone to think this is the way everybody's body is going through withdrawal. One of the moderater's comments was true explaining it to me. The best thing I did was get on here and let "everybody" know what I was about to go through. I am so appreciative as I got on this laptop laying down in my bed on cool sheets for my skin, and aching all over in pain, and got on the forum and vented like there was no tomorrow. These people lent me their shoulders during a crisis by myself. I have family but like I said, I knew this was going to change me during the period of no meds. wow did it. I have had some great people help get me through this; give me ideas; gave me online reading material to survive and cope, and get natural minerals and vitamins or my body.

i will keep submitting updates probably on new thread when this one gets too long and they do sometimes. I had a really awful painful crying pity day yesterday. It sucked. I had to drive over to Chesapeake to get my daughter from work and had to wait there 45 minutes and my skin was in a burning flare from the peripheal neuropathy. I was going through anxiety because of pain body pain. bp was elevated to the 190s. today I am hurting in a chronic way but the burning is not present. Hurray, hurray. Each day it's different.

CYA all soon. hugs grannytoo