finally new pm doctor/update from my withdrawal days

Hello to everyone.....i have been trying not to drive everybody nuts with posting forever about my withdrawal from Oxycodones.  I made it through these days/weeks, thank god for that!

To start I will say that it was rough but not to the point I had to live in the bathroom.  There still are moments in time like today that brought old feelings up about what took place at my prior pm clinic.  That is...I finally recieved the referral list and my paper to release me from her care.  This is nuts though, but the law sticks.  Yes, working for the government for 27 years in the Press Office of DHS, I realize these letters that go out are form letters just for signature by the doctor. makes things quick and easy, right?  Okay, I had to kind of laugh at that a little. However, I got a paper for me to sign or not sign that requested I visit a addictologist for the time being since I was released from a pm clinic.(I don't really have to go to one but it was a request from the doctor)   This also was another form letter.  I am NOT going to see an addictologist, as I am not addicted to anything in any form whatsoever. don't smoke, drink, or do any drugs in any way except for that which is prescirbed for me. I fully understand the difference between addiction and dependence. Then I test the waters if you know what I mean because it kind of scared me to go on oxy anyway.  For those who remember me, my urine test was weak for my oxy.  I had taken my meds as usual with only two the day before rather than three.  And one the day of the urine test.  Anyway, since so many of the forum members were so very compassionate, and understanding I want to tell you i am okay. I also have appts. for a new pm doctor who is suppose to be understanding. I  didn't have any trouble getting the referral nor the appts.There are three.

It pays to listen to what some people have to say and many are on this forum.  I listened to you all. I feel very fortunate to have been somehow introduced to you in this way.  

Now I have to say that getting these had papers stirred up what I had and what is now my future.  My future is that I learned a lesson I will NEVER forget.  After getting treated like I was an addict or pill pusher by the office manager who was so rude to me it made me shocked at what had just happened, so to speak. I researched and waited while going through withdrawal.  My knowledge is so much more attuned to facts about pm doctors, clinics and labs.  I was so naive about any of this.  I had only taken oxycodone once in my life and that was for the past two years.  I suffered alot of pain and still do but my trust and hope is in the future.  i pray for anybody who ever goes through this to please have patience, stay in touch with this forum and you will have friends for life ...

Oh, I also have to tell you that I have medical records of test for fast absorption rate by my gastroenterologist that was not considered when I was let go from the other pm clinic.  These documents will be given to my new pm specialist at onset of first meeting.

I will see you all soon with another update in the near future.  hugs, grannytoo     

I am glad you are looking for another pm doctor. I am a nurse and used to work for a pm. I had a lot of compassion for the people I took care of. That being said, I lost that along the way because there ARE people that abuse their meds. I can't tell how many times a day I heard such outrageous excuses for needing early refills. The doctor was also very compassionate and would give them the refills. In the end the practice closed because he was indicted. He then ended up committing suicide because he couldn't face prison and losing his license. It was all very traumatic. So I kind of understand the flip side that we as patients get so frustrated with. But there are others that ruin it for us. Others that scam and scheme. And its sometimes hard to differentiate. I hope your new pm gives you quality care and solutions. Best wishes.
Leslie

 Thank You Leslie and Loretta, and Straydog, too...    

Leslie, you are so right. I can't imagine being a nurse and seeing this go on, but more than anything I am sorry to hear that the doctor took his own life.  I don't have anything against my former doctor except I wanted them to review my medical papers. When I got rejected from the pm office, I was angry and sad, and scared to death to drive the miles back home in shock. unfortunately, the woman that spoke with me was very cruel to me, and just told me to leave and I wasn't a patient anymore of my doctor.  That I must have sold my medicine.  I handled it through this forum and all the good people who kept my spirits up and let me vent and helped me through the withdrawal. i am okay now. We have had some doctor suicide here in this state and the laws are tightening down severly.

All of my other doctors know the new pm specialist and that helps as they know me as well. I feel fortunate.

hugs, grannytoo

Hi greatgrandma, I was wondering how you were getting along. That is so wonderful to hear. I'm sorry that things aren't moving along a little faster for you, but I hope that the new PM brings a higher degree of relief and care for you than the old one. I hope you are feeling ok, you seem like you are over the withdrawl for the most part, or at least over the worst of it. Have your pain levels dropped any since all of this happened? I've read a few posts around here about peoples pain levels settling down a little when they come off the meds for a while. Maybe I misinterperated those posts, I'm not sure. Did your daughter pay you a visit like you had talked about? I hope it was at least a little enjoyable if she did. Well, I'm glad things are looking up for you, I hope this all comes to a resolution soon. Take care.

Granny, my psych is the most wonderful guy I have ever had the pleasure to deal with and I sincerely hope you have he same experience. I initially went to see him because of a PTSD issue that happened with a work related thing, however, it quickly changed because it was only a month or so after that when I hurt myself and life changed. Now, he helps me soooo much by just talking to me and prescribing a controlled release xanax. I cannot take anti-depressants, so I am limited to what meds I can take for issues like this. He is a very, very kind man and never treats me like anything but a great person who happens to need a reality check from time to time.

For example, when I was having a very serious issue dealing with a complicated vindictive person at work, he asked me if I was the only person who this guy had been "after". I assured him I was only one of a long line of those he had targeted for destruction and wham....he reminded me that the problem was obviously not me then, but the person who does this over and over. He asked me one quiet question.....
"what makes you think you are different than everyone else?" It may sound silly, but it was quite profound to me....what does make me think I am different from the legions before me (and those after me)? I was just the target for the time being of a man who enjoys causing pain to others. It made me see it very differently because I was not the problem at all....therefore I did not need to change my actions, I needed to change my thinking. I was just another victim to this idiot. You get it...

I hope you will find someone who is a wondeful as I have. I trust him completely and he is the voice of reason when I tend to overreact to the "little" things and even the really big things on occasion. It's very, very nice to know you really aren't crazy.........

All my best granny!!