I have had to switch doctors, too many times now. I see a great rheumatologist, but because he's in high demand..I only see him every six months. My last appt I was sick with a staff infection, and what they thought was pericarditis..so that ended up being the focus of the appt. I'm hoping this new cardiologist and the stress test and echo will provide some answers. My PCP referred me to him, the cardiologist is sure of an auto immune disease..it took him all of ten minutes talking to me and feeling my arms and legs, etc. He asked some simple questions, one being.. Is it difficult to take blood? Yes. It takes forever to get a vein, I get poked repeatedly and they have to dig and search.. They apologize and someone else comes to try. When I was in the ER in November it took three people and two hours just to get an IV and take blood for labs. The 1st tech told me my arm was hard, like it was full of scar tissue and that it was odd. The cardiologist thought a while and told me, I know what you have. Collagen Vascular Disease. There are types that can affect your heart and lungs.. which would explain why I have had this chest pain and my lungs hurt and I feel like I'm not getting enough air.
I'm having the stress test on the 29th.. I don't have much hope for this pain doctor appt, they told me I have to choose one specific issue to be treated. Not just chronic pain, a body part.. The worst pain is in my neck, so I chose that..why do I have to choose? Is this normal?? -because it sounds really stupid to me!!!
Things that do work for me are strict diet, physical therapy, and relaxation techniques. I really want to try the lupus medication and something to help with my lungs if that doesn't.. I've used advair before, opens you right up. I'm on generic Topamax for the migraines. My neuro tried to get botox approved for the facial pain, but it didn't happen. I took tramadol for a few months in 2010/2011 and it was great for the pain, but I developed an allergy to it.. It makes me insanely itchy, I just can't handle it. I have insomnia due to the pain and anxiety, so if the migraine medicine doesn't knock me out I have Ambien. I try to avoid that though. I can't take NSAIDS because of my stomach and a lot of other medications I've reacted to really poorly. I'm not an easy case to treat and I understand that.. I don't accept a doctor telling me to grin and bear it with a beer. Smile more, appreciate that you aren't dying and just be happy with what you have. I will, I am.. Let's make what I have enjoyable, shall we?! What a ridiculous way to speak to a patient begging you for help. I cried. I cried all the way out to my car.
It's really hard. I appreciate all the responses, I genuinely do. The irony of my doctor telling me to smile more is I smile All The Time. I'd just like to feel as though my body might smile with me. That's all.
No one can change my life, but me.. It's exhausting.