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Posted 12/30/2014 5:18 AM (GMT 0)
Just a vent! mad I am just WAY overtired and having a hard night.

I have found that my coping skills don't work every time. Today I am just super duper extra large irritable. I get so jealous when I check on everyone throughout the night and they are snoring. I know I shouldn't check on them (they are grown ups after all) but I am the Momma...there is no other way.

The Tamazepam didn't work, like at all didn't work. Even at larger doses. I have tried four times now with the same result...look, a beautiful sunrise. The pharmacist said 30mg should drop a big guy. I am not impressed.
The Hydrocodone does nothing for the pain. It just gives me a headache and makes my face feel warm and pinchy. The nurse was astounded that the sleeping med still didn't work so I am not going to say anything about the pain med. its just not worth the hassle. Medications just don't ever work right on me.

I really detest being a zebra. I hate having yet another disappointment. Its like being good all year long: being nice to your sisters and even cleaning your room because Santa will bring you a red rider bb gun. You rush downstairs on Xmas morning and your parents tell you that you are Jewish.

Well, anyhow. I hope everyone had as awesome of a holiday as we did. All the kids and most of the grandbabies stopped by at some point. Lots of food, lots of laughter and one wedding. I am blessed even if I do have stripes.
Posted 12/30/2014 6:22 AM (GMT 0)
I'm sorry you're having a rougher than usual night. It makes no difference how old they are, we are still Momma. People react differently to meds. I've been told that meds I use to take would knock anyone out and when I told them I took them right before I came. They sat there and waited for me to fall asleep, which never happened. But, a low dose of other meds knock me for a loop. Try talking to your dr about it. Hopefully you will get better results. Some meds have to build up in your system before you get any benefits. I can't remember if that is one of those meds or not.

You have a sense of humor and that can help you get through just about everything.
Posted 12/30/2014 2:32 PM (GMT 0)
I'm sorry you haven't found the med that works for you. Thinking healing thoughts for you. When all my coping mechanisms break down, and nothing works, I just feel so defeated.
Posted 12/30/2014 7:40 PM (GMT 0)
I'm like you - the meds just don't work as well for me. I've been told and have read that it's because I am a red-head and meds don't help us as much. I was in the hospital recently for emergency surgery and on IV morphine, and the nurse couldn't believe that I still wasn't sleeping.

My sleep is sporadic and I count myself lucky when I get 3 consecutive hours. I find myself waiting for the time when I become so exhausted that I will sleep for a whole day, but it takes months before my body shuts down like that. Except for times of extreme pain, then I shut down and sleep for a couple hours and can't be woken up by anything! I don't even take anything to help me sleep anymore, nothing works and I try to only take meds that have a noticeable difference.

For me it helps to have hobbies that I can do sitting in my arm chair. I crochet, read, plan my garden or research a topic of current interest to me. Most of the time I try not to think about the lack of sleep, and I've learned to enjoy the house when it's dark and quiet, and I can sip some herbal tea and just enjoy some alone time. At least that's what I tell myself. :D

It's like everything else, I try not to worry about what my pain will be like in five years, or if I'll still be walking or... but I know sometimes things can grab hold of us, and I hope for you that you can find some relief from the stress of your insomnia.
Posted 12/30/2014 9:57 PM (GMT 0)
Couldn't keep from chuckling about "the red head theory".  Does it still apply to those of us red heads who have turned gray underneath the "red"?  I'm truly not laughing at...but with...y'all.  I have severe mal-absorption issues due to gastric surgeries.  As for sleeping...I don't believe that I would ever sleep without aid of meds.  I can't shut down my brain.  I close my eyes and try to "clear" my thoughts, but the committees continue to convene=)

IMO there is no feeling like the one of loneliness and isolation during the dark hours.  The physical pain is intensified by the fear and anxiety...Sleep is the only escape.  It, more often than not, eludes me.

ZEBRAS are MAGNIFICENT=)

Hugs~~Dixie

 

Posted 12/30/2014 10:31 PM (GMT 0)
pharmacogenomics - the study of the interaction of genes and drugs. We gingers have a mutated gene, which I don't think changes when the hair goes gray. :D
Posted 12/30/2014 10:41 PM (GMT 0)
I've read two studies on the red headed theory and it makes sense, especislly if you're a red head. But, it doesn't seem to make any difference with most drs.

Dixie6, I don't know about others, but the flame turning gray doesn't seem to make any difference with me.
Posted 12/30/2014 11:06 PM (GMT 0)
My gene pool is murky on the clearest of days! smhair

My copper head (sometimes) matches my demeanor.  Just ask my husband=) 

The gray hair serves me well as "blonde" highlights in my "auburn" mane.  Just ask my stylist=)

It's been tough to maintain the facade with SHINGLES in my eye/face.  My doctor wouldn't allow me to shampoo with more than baby shampoo/cool water for several months.  NO CHEMICALS whatsoever on my already-angry scalp. I swear that after 7+ months of this on top of everything else...I feel like shaving my entire head and sitting in the ashes of JOB.

I joke that I can't even do that, because some jerk peed out the fire=(

~~Dixie

Posted 12/30/2014 11:50 PM (GMT 0)
Dixie, you have a great sense of humor. You made me laugh, Thank You.
Posted 12/31/2014 12:00 AM (GMT 0)
It makes me smile to know that I made you laugh=) 

I figure God must have had a sense of humor when he planted my family tree.  Ya know, he also made ZEBRAS and my beloved Dalmatians.

Posted 12/31/2014 3:38 AM (GMT 0)
Thanks for the thoughts.

Mercy,
Humor is better than crying. I look for happy or funny anywhere I can. It keeps me sane.

Trix,
Interesting concept on gingers, Yep, I am also a red head. My hubby says its god's warning...be careful with that one.

I KNEW Dixie was a redhead...knew it without a hesitation. No grey does not change the warning, just makes it more fun when they cant tell.

I wonder how many on list are?

I have never responded to meds right. Oh, I found out today that the warmth and pinchy feeling in my face is not a good thing I have never responded to meds right. Is probably N allergic reaction starting. Each time will get worse. So I cant take the pain meds anyhow. Add it to the list. Back to Benadryl. Maybe my tolerance faded some...hope hope hope
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