no more thank you i have had enough!

(((Arms embracing both you and your husband)))

No words.

~Dixie

I am so very sorry.....my father had mesothelioma. He was a pesticide chemist that worked for a company who made asbestos products as well as pesticides and herbicides. So, in addition to asbestos exposure (we actually lived in Manville, NJ home of Johns Manville the #1 asbestos product manufacturer) he also worked with arsenic, DDT and other fun chemicals.

I am sending you all my prayers, good thoughts and healing energy waves.

Ellen

Many prayer, healing hugs and gentle embraces...

Take this as you do your CP, one day at a time, don't think too far ahead your strong but God's grace is stronger and he's got this!

(((((pptrsha))))))

Huge hugs to you, dearheart. You have each other to lean on, today. But first you cry. Be okay with holding each other and just feeling what you feel today.

I'm sure you've already scoured the internet for all the information you can. This is where I suggest you step away for a bit and try to just be present for the other. While the internet is an informational hub, it contains bits that won't pertain, bits that aren't accurate and bits that are just downright wrong.
There's enough fear already. I hate to see you add unnecessary fear at this point, know what I mean?

So breathe, feel what you feel and be present for each other. Try to just stay in today if you can.
Start a list. Set the appointment.
You'll get a lot of information at that first appointment--each of you will hear bits the other doesn't. Try to clear your mind, take paper, ask questions, make notes.
And know that you have a host of people who are praying, sending positive thoughts, and who will be there for you.

How in the world did I miss this post? Geez, pptrsha1, what can I say? Go ahead, throw a tantrum. Life is NOT fair! Let it out. Then, get up and wash your face, take a deep breath and get back into the battle. My prayer list is getting longer, but that's ok with me!

(((Bear Hugs))) continue, my sweet.  You can come up for air when necessary.  I know this is ALL too much, but know that we all are there in spirit to steady the burden.  I smiled that you are maintaining your sense of humor (power tool) in this project called life.  My DH critiques my driving, yet scare the bejeezers out of me with his driving.

I'm here.  I'm listening.

~Dixie

(((Pptrsha)))

Be easy on you--you're doing the best any human being does under your circumstances, you both are. Each of you are simply trying to survive this moment. It's a doosey of a moment, to say the least. And today you're doing your best--both of you are.
Trying to be levelheaded to get the appointments lined up is emotionally and physically exhausting. You feel an overwhelming sense of urgency while they're, undoubtedly trying to juggle hundreds of others, each with their own sense of urgency.
Sometimes we have an urgency that's based out of fear, rather than something that's true which we might not know.
I don't know this cancer, but my sister's oral cancer was the aggressive type. I thought that meant every second was vital. And while every second IS precious, her cancer wasn't fast growing. They really could afford the two weeks before the appointment.

Just make sure you're breathing and taking the time to take care of you. Your health and wellbeing will play an important piece in his treatment. There's that delicate balance happening here as you're trying to be present--tipping the scales will affect your ability to do that and will add to his emotional stress as well.

I'm not telling you things you don't already know. I'm just gently reminding you because our fear tends to get in the way during all the chaos that any cancer creates.

Be gentle with yourself--no beating yourself up for being human, okay?

*huge hugs*
Thinking of you--praying for the both of you.