No matter what my feelings tell me there are things that aren't going to be comprised. I have people in my life who remind me that "feelings aren't fact". They're right, they're just feelings--they come, they go....and 90% of the time my feelings are based on screwed up perceptions and faulty information.
I'd urge you to follow up on self care, no matter how you "feel". Dunno about
you, but things don't "feel" different for me until I do different, even when I don't FEEL like it. LOL.
Trust me-- I have a ton of stuff happening right now....and I don't really wanna be bothered to show up for my appt. with my Pain Management Physician. I'd just as soon use the afternoon up by staying in bed with the covers over my head, ignoring life and realities. I have a full plate physically, emotionally and spiritually. *sigh* But so do the people I love. And I can't and won't be of ANY good to them if I don't show up and take care of stuff so I CAN be present for them. Depression is another disease waiting to rob us of having a life, too, you know!
I get tired of the battles, but I keep reminding myself that this isn't just about
me.
Fight on, anyway.
You're worth it. And your presence in the lives of others--MATTERS.
Sooooo.....that being said, I'll show up for my appt. Cuz it's the right thing to do, even if I don't FEEL like going.
And, for the record, I love my TENS unit. Especially as of late, since I've failed to have my meds on me more than once....that little unit let me get enough 'distraction' that I was able to get in my car and drive an hour plus to get home from visiting the ICU and back on schedule with my medications. If I end up that uncomfortable after missing 2 doses, can you imagine what a mess I'd be if I didn't show up to get refills ?!
The fact is, no matter what my "feelings" tell me, I need to be these pain medication. *sigh* I wish that wasn't a fact of my life, but the bottom line is....it IS. No amount of maltreatment of myself is going to change that. Taking care of myself isn't optional, it's required.
Get to your appts, do anything you need to do to find relief from that paralyzing level of pain (physically or emotionally) that tells you "you can't keep doing this"...cuz you can and will--other people NEED you in their lives. You matter, yaknow? You matter to this one !
:-/
JUST sayin...
It's not everyone I "decloak" to deliver that message to, ya know! LOL. *hugs*