Why me???

I was married to a man for over 15 yrs who beat me and cheated on me. I felt like I had to stay for the kids sake of a normal life. What is normal? I was told I was ugly and old I had three kids, who would want me? Well as years passed I realized my life was slipping away. Unhappy with life and working like a dog. I undertook a new life raising my girls alone. Not soon after I divorced I was hurt at work and need surgery. I passed as I was raising kids alone.
I met a long lost love. A true friend who loved me for me. I have had two back surgeries and I still need moe. I have chronic pain and CHF I also have depression, arthritis, My back is falling a part and asthma. All of this after I got out of a dark life I hate to think about.
Now this chronic pain is my life. Why me?????

Very well said Chutzie. I think at some point we all ask that question, but still cannot come up with a really good acceptable answer. So, my best shot at it is, to try and not dwell on it too much or too often. If we did it would run us absolutely nuts. I think many of us feel this way because its all so overwhelming. When I find myself starting down that road, I switch gears the best I can and wil get up and go do something in the house, or walk outside to kind of clear my head out. Susie