Need Lots of TLC

Amanda (do I have the name right?),
Thank you so much! We do have disability here, and i'll likely have to apply for it once my unemployment runs out unless something changes with my health (I keep hoping), but it can take years to get disability and it really won't amount to much. I wonder how I'll do things like pay for major car repairs, etc. There's really not much to do as far as work goes that realistically pays much. And here they end up deducting most everything you make from any benefits you get.

I have a small amount left it what was to have been my retirement (a very small amount) so I am requesting an emergency withdrawal from that and am praying the car repairs won't be too much. This isn't something I want a relative to mess with as it involves a leak somewhere in my gas line and that can be dangerous if not fixed right.

I want to cry and I want to scream because I want my health back! I want to be able to work a few more years and not live in poverty and pain. I am ANGRY about it and I know everyone who reads this has been there at one point or another. Part of me is still fighting but I don't know for what. Grabbing at straws, I guess. Looking for a miracle. Yet knowing the reality is I just have to somehow manage. For now I have a roof over my head, but paying the monthly bills....Oh enough! I hate listening to myself!

Thanks for letting me vent everyone!!

PaLady

PaLady:

First, thanks for the rolly polly, dear! It really is as good as a great big hug!

Second, want me to come over and wreck your car for ya? Then the insurance people would have to help out, right? I think I can get one of the Wilsons to try driving it for a little while. If you're out in the country (and since Wilsons are bouncy!) the only damage should be to the car. Well, and maybe a fence post or two...
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Seriously, though, friend. You know I'm praying with you and wishing I could do so much more!
(((((((((((((PaLady))))))))))))))

Ry

RY toooooo funny you crack me up, why did i not think of your idea,?????

Palady,

So sorry to hear what you are goin though.  I am in the same boat not that that makes anyting better.  But you are not alone.   I have a mountain of bills pilling up and when i got my car fixed from accident they wouldnt fix my tires because they told me that they were alredy needing to be replaced which was a pile of crap because they were fine befor my accident so now I have to find a way to come up with money to get 2 new tires for my new car and on top of being behind my bills already a month so love you are not alone.

The one thing I do want to say is the salvation army if you have one in your area does help with food and can pay some of your bills its like a one time deal within a yrs time but it might be enough to get you through and get your car fixed.

As well I know the electric companys do have a low income energy assistance program I think you get it throgh you local wefar office.  I know that its hard to swallow pride and ask for help but its better than goin down the tubes and not being able to live.  As well you should make some calls to the local churches because they have a great resourse to other agencies as well that can help.  That is the role of the church to be a hospital to those in need and alot do.  I am finding that out as I have had to resourse alot this last month as well.

Make you make the calls love on monday they can be a great resource like I said.  If they cant help they may be able to direct you to those who can.  Also which I am looking into now is that the goverment has grants that people can apply for for help and its free to get them and I think there is one for disabled.  Just a thought like I said Im looking into it myself saw it on TV one night when I couldnt sleep.  And its money you dont have to pay back!

I wish so much there was more that I could do for you to help you out Palady. IF you dont mind me asking where you life I know tons of people all over us and may be able to help you out with something.

Oh and hey would love to come and hit you car as well when I got in my accident not only did they not pay for my tires they would pay for front end saying there was no way it was from accident which it was so I have a crack in my bumber I need to be fixed so would love to help us both out lol. 

Always praying for you Palady and wishing the best.  And remember that you are not alone and you vent all you need sometimes this is the only thing we have to get us through intil we can find the light again.  But always remember that darkness can not exsist without the light!

Love Lara

ummmmmm PA it just so happens that I bought two quick pick lottery tickets for tonights 65 million dollar drawing! If I win...no prob I will set us all up with a big resort where we can all be together and do our thing! Hey maybe we can get the US Gov to throw in some funding for our therapy pool and PT crew and 24 hour doctors and nurses. We will have Massage therapy and of course animal therapy and everything we need at our service


hugsssssssssssssssss and crossing fingers


Scarred

Ok, Scarred, we have your commitment in writing!! Wouldn't it be a hoot if you did win?!

I'm sure those Wilsons would sneak back and want to be a part of it all!

By the way, will you buy me a car, too?

PaLady

Scarred,
Oh, no! That's not the scenario you or we want! You win the 65 million, set up a resort for all of us (real, not virtual!), we repay you with undying love and hugs and anything else we're able to give.

You and hubby have the "big house" and live into your ripe old age as hubby no longer has to work. And they find a cure for his mother's AD which you'll be able to afford, and a miracle pill will be developed so you no longer have pain!

And Ry and Gabby and I and others won't have to be lonely and sad.

PaLady

Absolutely!!!

PaLady

PaLady, Scarred: All I can say is "YES, PLEASE!!!!!"


Ry

Thanks again, Ry, for understanding. And yes, I understand the invitation and having to back out, too. I have a family gathering I really want to go to tomorrow because it's my goddaughter's little girl's birthday party, even though it's Labor Day. But like you I've not been feeling well, and they're starting earlier in the day and that's always such a challenge. i feel like such a slug that even getting somewhere by noon is a challenge! So I've already been thinking today that I may have to call and say I'll come later. I was supposed to make a dish to bring but I'm just not up to it.

To add to things one of my neighbors is having work done and new cement walks put in (they're handicapped) and they're putting the sealent on today! That stuff is pure chemical! It's a beautiful day and I've had to stay in and close all my windows but I still smell it. Oh, well, at least we're not on the Gulf Coast! Can you imagine having to evacuate for people like us - in chronic pain, living alone? Nightmare is beyond the word! You'd be riding in horribly crowded and uncomfortable vehicles, sleeping on cots in a shelter....how on earth I'd ever do that I don't know!

Hugs to you, my friend!
PaLady
p.s. Back to the reason(s) we decline invitations....I wondered if it's also psychological for you, too, as it is for me. By that I mean sometimes (most all the time, truthfully) it's very hard to be around people who have normal lives. Normal conversations about normal problems. But a future. And can sit around and discuss how they're maybe as a couple or a family, going to handle a problem. But it's one part of their lives. And they have LIVES. Sometimes I think that's even more painful to me than the physical aspects.

Post Edited (PAlady) : 8/31/2008 1:27:05 PM (GMT-6)

Awe, PAlady, lots and lots of soft hugz and my shoulder is here when you need to lean on it. Good luck at the party tomorrow and just try to take it easy, when you can.

Hello Palady,

Just wanted to check up and see how you are doing today.  I was invited to a labor day party as well and almost declined because I have been in alot of pain last few days but I made myself go and Im so glad I did.  I didnt stay long but I did have a nice time and I think mentaly it did me wonders to be out and with other.

I wanted to post a question and I hope I dont upset anyone just a thought really.

I got to thinking...that some of us work even if its part time.. We push ourselves out the door to work as much as we can must of us out of ness.  I quess what got me to thinking is why dont we do it with our social lives as well?  We decline as we arent up to it or in pain.  But when ness calls we go to work.  Isnt our mental and social lives just as much a ness as work and money? If our minds feel better doesnt it make it better for us to deal with the phycail as well? 

I wanted to decline today and not go because I was tired and hurting and just wanted to lay on the couch.  But I told myself that I need to have some sort of life just as much as I need to live and pay bills.  If all we do is just work to survive then we really arent living just exsisting and that really upset me so I forced myself to go even if it was just for a little while and I have to say it was painful but really no more painful than sitting here by myself.

Well anyway it was just a thought and no judgement on anyone at all...just a thought of encouragement as I think sometimes we get in this rut and just stop trying to have some symbolence of a normal life because of the pain, but like I siad if i have to sit here and have it whats the difference and sometimes the diversions we have mean so much.

Hope you are well Palady and as always praying for you and wishing you well

Love Lara