Another bad day!

Gosh, it sure seems I am having quite a few of these lately. Not only am I in a fog of depression today but.....the weather has taken a turn for the worst and I can feel a cold front coming in! I hate days like this! Why can it not stay 70 degrees all year round with maybe a nice soft snow fall around Christmas. Had a doctor appt. with my Pain doc yesterday but that was a worthless trip as my doctor went home early cause she was sick. So I got to see the nurse who went over my problems....concerns....and whatever else she needed to write down and will speak with my doc in the next couple of days. I am not sleeping well....only getting 4 hours a night, which then I pretty much cat nap during the day and all that does is leave me feeling tired throughout the day. But then again I can understand why my doc doesn't want to switch up my meds right now because we are preparing for a Psych Evaluation next Wed. so that we can see if I am a candidate for the Spinal Cord Stimulator. I had a pretty good day yesterday and Tuesday pain wise as it was 70 degrees outside and my pain level was down to a dull roar (around a 4 on the pain scale). But today I am back up there with about an 8 and I just feel like I am a yoyo here bouncing from one end of the scale to the other. A 4!!!! Last time I saw a 4 was..........*thinking*...............gosh too many years ago to count LOL.

Usually I am raging at a 7-8 on the scale and have to end up in bed cause it hurts so much. On another note.....I am so looking forward to the Psych Evaluation next Wed. I believe that I am in the right place this time to get approved for the SCS and I truly hope that it will help. Between trying to keep the housework up......filling out the ton of paperwork that the Psychologist sent me to do and getting ready for a visit from my oldest son, whom I have not seen in 5 years I think that I am doing to much which probably is why I am hurting so much. Anyway....time for another cat nap since my pain meds are kicking in.

Soft hugsssss to all my CPers.

Scarred

Ok girlie, enough housework. If he thinks enough of this girl to bring her to your home thats great. But remember, Mom the floors do not have to be clean enough to eat off, after all I am sure dinner will be served on the table.lol

I can only plead with you to slow down some and stay focused on the upcoming evaluation. The weather is giving you the blues, you really need to start on some vitamin D since you can't depend on sulight every in good old Kansas. I lived there too many. many years ago in a small pass by and blink your eyes you missed it town, called Satanta.lol. My Mom lived there too before moving to Garden City.

No fighting with your sister, put her on the back burner-you have bigger fish to fry coming up. Lots of Hugsss, Susie

Hugsssssss you tightly Susie!!!! You are so right! It is not like I have to impress my son's wife....after all he's already married to her and like my opinions count LOL. Besides...my home is big enough to where when its a little messy it really doesn't look that bad. Hubby yelled at me yesterday after he got home from work and told me to wait until this weekend and he would help me with the house. I'll let him do all the vacuuming and laundry; moping and sweeping so that I can concentrate on getting ready for my Evaluation. I was so used to having to clean a trailer house that moving to this house has really set my balance off. Whereas it took me a couple of hours to clean my trailer since moving into a huge house has now taken me all day to clean!! Really messed me up and I guess I just want to make sure that I show that I am not a horrible housekeeper. But, it really does not matter after all he's coming to see me not my house!! So hubby has put me on bedrest for the next few days and told me my main job is to get my paperwork ready for my appt. and to REST up.

I started on Vit. D two weeks ago and that seemed to help. I didn't realize that I wasn't getting enough of that Vit. cause I've always been a huge milk drinker but lately I haven't been drinking that much milk and I decided to supplement with the vitimin. Anyway...thank you so much for the advice I really do appreciate it hun and I hug you tightly for being You!

PA: hugssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss I hope your feeling better.

Scarred

Just shooting off a post before I doze off to sleep. Thank you all for your warm and sincere posts. Its been a rough day. I've been called paraniod.......a liar and been told that I have totally stabbed my family in the back. I got so upset that I turned off my cell phone and it will stay off until after the Psych Evaluation. But Susie.....PA you will be so proud of me!!!! I didn't get upset or cry or get angry from their words I just laughed it off and shut my phone off. I was so tickled that I could actually tune my family out that I treated myself to a bowl of ice cream.

Well now its time to get some sleep so wishing you all great dreams and a lessened pain night.

Hugs

Scarred