My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hospice is absolutely fantastic. My husband of 43 yrs died from cancer. I do not think I could have survived it without Hospice.
Try to relax as much as possible - I know that is very difficult but it will help with your pain. Worry today about what you can do something about. If you can't do anything about it today put it in a worry jar and forget about it until tomorrow. Then take it out again and look at it and apply the same test. It really helps.
Ms Kitty