Posted 3/21/2012 4:21 AM (GMT 0)
Just when I felt almost normal again...wham! I get this sharp, stabbing pain in my left forearm that feels like a blade is tearing through my muscle straight into my hand and down my middle finger where it throbs and burns like its on fire! I can't use my arm, if I move it or try to use it the pain increases ten fold. I get the same exact pain in my right forearm as week, but today it's my left side that's killing me. I took a BT pill, but it doesn't touch the pain.
Even at rest my arm feels like its weighed down and my muscle is being pulled from my arm. What did I do? How did I cause this flare up? I thought my pain was under control. I was all set to tell my PM doctor on Friday that we finally found the magic dose. Now I can't believe the intensity of the pain. It's not swollen and ice and heat packs don't help. I'm at a point where I feel cutting my arm off is the only way to stop the pain. Guys, my wife is Deaf and I need my arms, hands and fingers to sign with her! There are days, such as these where I can't 'talk' with my wife. I feel horrible and not just from the pain in my arms. I'm typing this mostly with my right hand and now my right arm is starting to ache the same as the left.
I know the pain is associated with the nerve damage to my neck. I had a 2-level fusion back in July, but after about three months the pain and numbness returned with a vengeance! What do I do now? I can't sleep...I'm at my wits end. I can't imagine having to live with this level of pain everyday for the rest of my miserable life.
Mr. Miserable