My probably dumbest move yet

I really must be partially brain dead. lol I told that to must hubby and he said I've known that for awhile. ha ha

So not sure what I was thinking. I threw a mommy tantrum probably about 6 months ago. And took myself off some of my meds. Must have been lack of coffee that day.

I decided not to go back on the MsContin even though it worked well. I couldn't eat enough prunes for it not to cause a problem. So my rheumy put me on oxycodone and I just couldn't get past the nausea. We need to figure out what to do next. I can't keep going at this many high pain level days.

And I stopped taking my topomax because I was sick of taking it and I'm so sick of pills. pills more pills, injections, rf's an all the other garbage I've done in the last 8 years. Not a real good reason. Like I said brain dead moment.

So I have an appointment next week. My doc called and wanted an appointment now instead of August because he wants to get me off the lipitor. He thinks the lipitor caused my diabetes. I swear its been a domino effect with my health since that stupid car accident.

I can't take it anymore. I need to go back on the topomax before my leg keeps throwing me on the floor. My legs look like my hubby has been beating me. I need to get rid of some of this pain because the kids don't want to sit around the house all summer.

It all finally clicked to me today while I had my daughter at PT, when 2 of the therapists told me I looked like I was going to fall over and went and got a chair for me. Made me feel real great, I felt like crap but didn't realize I also looked like crap.

I would get back on the MS Contin and use fiber tablets, drink lots of water/liquid, and use miralax as well. That's what I have to do, being on Oxycontin and IR Oxycodone. It really helps though, and the miralax isnt rough like some of the other laxatives. Also, moving around helps to keep things moving, I know that in itself can be painful but exercise can really help.

Use the ones that work and ditch the ones you're just taking, just to take it. I only use the same two meds and threw away the rest. I'm sure it's not great for my organs but it's better than the 7 prescribed meds I took just to try.