Cant stand it anymore

I am posting this because im extremely frustrated. I am 27 years old (about to be 28 this month) and I just want my life back. Ive been to doctor after doctor and surgeon after surgeon and nobody can figure out whats wrong with me or how to fix it. I had 2 neurologist and one surgeon turn me away saying my case was too complex. I feel as if nobody can help me and ill be stuck like this forever. It started out as an over use injury and muscle knots and ropey muscles in my shoulder blades as well as a tear in my shoulder. Now despite the fact I quit my sport and quit my job because I can barely move anymore the situation has progressed to much much more. The pain has spread all over my hips flare up my elbows but mostly my upper back and neck. I am so stiff I lost full range of motion to turn my head and look behind me. My shoulders constantly make clunking noises and I found its the muscle that's so hard and knotted with adhesions that its rubbing on the bones and making odd noises. But my pain has reached a 9 now and I barely can stand it. Because im pregnant with my first child 5 months nobody has let me take anything for pain other than Tylenol.

Theres also more strange symptoms. My muscles twitch all over me. Sometimes you can feel the muscle jumping if you touch it quick enough before it happens on another part of my body. Sometimes it feels like just a pulse or something beating under my skin. This happens on all parts of my body my legs, arms, back, and rear end.

I just feel like I cant take it anymore. I am in the process of filing bankruptcy because ive reached almost 70 000 in medical debt. I feel like im drowning here and im tired of asking from help from my family. my parents are getting older and I should be helping them not asking for help. Im too young to be on disability and my payments if I managed to get it would only be 300 -400 each month not enough to live on. I am at a loss of what to do. Its been 2 years now and I feel im going to be stuck like this forever. I cant stand the pain anymore to the point I wish i could just die in my sleep i feel like i no longer have any quality to my life.

I have tried massages, yoga, ice, heat, Tylenol, active release therapy, chiropractors, muscle lasar therapy, i had surgery to fix the tear in the right shoulder and ive been doing physical therapy. My pain has still not changed despite anything i do.

Have i exhausted all options here or is there anything else i can do?

There is always something more that can be done. You can seek out different surgeons and doctors until you find someone who can help you. You can ask to see a doctor of pain management (be sure to see one who does more than injections). In the meantime keep a diary of how you feel on a day to day basis, what makes the pain worse, what makes it better, etc, and it with you to every doctors appointment.

Just out of curiosity how do you know what your disability payments would be should you apply and get accepted? BTW: If my understanding is correct you should be able to apply for medicaid (assuming you live in the USA). Since the new health care law went into effect it is now based strictly on income.

Thanks everyone my appointment with the rheumatologist is june 11 so I got impatient a little bit and nervous. And yes im excited about the baby just really hard with the pregnancy and having this on top of it. I went on the website for filing disability and my quote was around that much I started working at 23 since I went to college so its just been 4-5 years. I feel obligated to work anyways because I just feel guilty about being young and having people taking care of me and not looking like a lazy bum. I feel bad for my parents for helping me when I wanted to help them. Right now ill keep waiting until june I have stopped the massage therapy as it was getting quite expensive. I start a part time job this month but i dont think I can handle more than the 30 hours as now I started experiencing migraines every day from the neck spasms

And sorry for the negativity its not that I wanted attention I just felt so frustrated and impatient I hate waiting for my appointments to come I know other peopke are sick too but its difficult when you want an answer immediately.

Hello Fn and welcome! There's many Fibro mom's so if that's going to be your diagnosis know its not impossible and they manage well.

As for your low payment? The way that works is if you do not have enough work credits to draw $721 a month, SSI pays the difference if your in the qualifying bracket. You would get say $421 from SSDI, $300 from SSI to make you reach that income minimum of $721 not going to get rich but better then just the SSDI amount.

Im one of the CPers whom remained on my PM meds throughout pregnancy and although my daughter was born early due to a placental abruption it had nothing to do with my meds and she had no w/d issues at my dose.

You have to be diagnoised with a medically determined impairment in order to receive disability. But, that's not all, the impairment must prove to be at a level of seveity by the medical evidence that would prevent you from doing any job in the national economy. You age, education and previous work are factored in. SSA sometimes finds that someone can't return to their previous work, but there are other jobs they can do. Your medical records need to have the details of how your impairments prevent you from doing daily activities, treatments tried and their outcome, meds, diagnostic test results, etc.

Thanks everyone for your comments and support here. I am still waiting patiently for my appointment in the mean time i have just been diagnosed with epilepsy it was what i thought was a strange panic attack. i am just writing everything down now to speak to them about during my appointment. I hope things start to get better i did talk to my boss about everything and he said we would take it one day at a time and he wanted me on the team but now i feel more relaxed that if i cant end up working that job because of everything going on i wont look completely unreliable. i just had to tell him some of what was going on and apologize because i had no idea i would find out i had epilepsy on top of all of this.

its also good to know about the ssi 721 isnt alot but its much better than 400 and well im going to keep trying to work if i can with this and just use that as a last resort. ^_^

thanks everyone

Vickie explained all of that in her post about how SSI works with SSD.