sad and alone

I feel so sad today. I am so alone. I live in such a mess. Canteven brush my teeth today. Which is normal for me. Have to choose what is possible. Bare minimum. Such pain my whole spine is blown out top of head. I feel sad because I guess today I feel like I just need so much more than I have. I must be patient. I know we are always provided with needs, but i am in need. And I am so sad. I donthave any close friends nearby other than my mom but mom and pop are gone today. I am sad because I just cant explain it. I am so frustrated being stuck in this body that isn't working right. I feel prisoner. I usually stay very positive. But today I am sad and reaching out to you guys.

Working on getting electric chair carrier for car so I can do more. I am so isolated and dependent on others, but there is really no one to help me.

Thank you Abilene. And thank you also to others who have read my post. It helps to just admit my sadness, and I Feel your thoughts and prayers. All of you thankYou.

Abilene - I am mostly patient and full of faith. Lately it's been a strange difficult time cause I live in a trailer behind my parents' house, and after losing everything, like my house and vehicles, that is hard. The atmosphere is not ideal. I am used to having a nice sanctuary as my home.

I have no pets, tho any nature is loved by me. A frog came last week and sat in my succulent plant out my door. He keeps returning and ributting. It's very cute. An opportunity to talk sweetly to him.

I'd like to meditate, be somewhere that feels healing. But instead, for today, I watch tv, which is not my favorite thing to do. But it gets my mind off of the pain and immobility. I would take the Jazzy chair for a stroll but I'm in too much pain. Just need to rest here, laying flat. I'm out of the pain meds that help, and just trying to exist today.

Thank you for reading / reaching out / sending prayer. For every prayer you give for me, I ask to simultaneously give prayer for you.

Gonna take my own advice
and find joy where I least
expect it.

ThankYou what a great idea Vickie. I know the local community program number, as they have sent volunteers to help me. I will reach out to them on Monday and see about volunteering to connect with elders. Love that idea.

It is hard to do anything when the pain is so big.