No intent to hijack BTL's thread, but hey...our issues are similar (even James). I'll explain. Stage IV endometriosis has technically been "terminal", as in it's ended MY life. I just suffer the misery and pain without the knowledge that this will end...I admire your strength and perseverance, James. I truly do. I also give kudos to you for your supportive posts here. For me personally, I've had many "cancer" scares. I exist, but don't "live". If specialists would approach our pain treatment similar to a cancer patient, rather than deny the existence of this disease...perhaps I'd feel differently. My story is LONG and painful, so I won't repeat previous posts. I've put most of it "out there" but I feel like few understand.
BTL...I STILL believe some of your pain is endo/adhesion related. I just DO. My nut case PM doctor told me that he "does not treat pelvic pain, but would treat my spine/bone pain". He added that "pain is pain". I, too, tried Morphine, but the constipation issues could not be overcome with my gastric anatomy. He wanted Fentanyl from day one, but I went there in 2005-06 (briefly) then swore off PM entirely until this year. I think Morphine had potential for me, but...I'm taking Oxycodone IR with no BT. I have no PA so I can't afford the ER costs. I am very sensitive to medications, period. The Oxycodone hits hard, leaves fast. I can't seem to level out the serums. Any advice?
JAU...How did you discover the injectable NSAID? Is that something I could ask my PM for? I self-inject B12 for life, so would that process be similar? I suffer horribly from bloating/distention/inflammation, but cannot tolerate oral solutions such as Voltaren. Any advice?
James...You speak so eloquently of your diagnosis/prognosis. I love to read your posts, though I have great empathy for you. I admire you so much, with your "acceptance and courage to fight" while lending your compassion for others.
This has grown even more complicated since starting PM in January. I often wish I could have consulted with Dr. Jack. I'm beyond my expiration date, and in a dangerously dark place. I understand Brittany Maynard's decision. I was never able to have children. I think my husband would be better off starting over.
BTL...You've GOT TO muster the strength for those babies...no matter what. Find some relief, then immerse yourself in whatever activity with them...even if it's just coloring in coloring books or Spiro-graph. I LOVE kids...always wanted a houseful. I know at this point in my life I couldn't be the mother I'd need to be. I am similar to AngMichelle...I find great joy in my nieces and nephews. I rarely get to see them, but oh what fun we have when we are together.
Ang is SO ON POINT with her reply to your other thread...Sweetie, you've gotta find the flower seeds amongst the load of fertilizer. I promise you they are THERE, even though right now all you've got is the SMELL.
Please let us know what happens with your PM today.
Always, (((HUGS)))
Dixie