Wow! Thank you all so much for the kind words! You don't know how awesome it is to finally be able to correspond with others who actually know EXACTLY what I feel/am going through.
In regards to the Humira, the insurance does not want to pay up. Amazing, with what I pay them this should be pocket change for them...But do not fret I am NOT going to give up. There has to be some light at the end of this tunnel for me and I will be d*mned if I allow some insurance company to tell me what I can/cannot take because they refuse to pay. I found links to programs that may assist in getting the Humira paid for on this site. Again many thanks to all of you!!