Hello everyone, sorry it took me so long to get back with you. Okay things have not gone to plan again. I was scheduled for surgery Oct. 14th, but had to postpone again to Nov. 5th due to insurance issues. Been having alot on my mind the past couple of days so I wasn't looking to post anything. Just trying to get my mind away from the procedure as much as possible. This new date scares me because this is the day that my mom and I were in that horrific car crash twenty years ago. I was only one then, I servived by my mother didn't. Now twenty years later I'm going to be wheeled into an operating room on that very same day, bummer? Or maybe its a sign from God sayong that he protected me that day in that car and he'll guide me through this without any problems, hopefully.
It's in Gods hands and I've just been reading my bible alot, especially Psalms 21 and 101. A lot others also, I've been playing video games alot to keep my mind off of things. Got a little scared yesterday because I was getting that full feeling and I wasn't going to the bathroom. I didn't go since thursday and I knew, I was eating alot. Yesterday morning I woke up with faint pains down where that spot was, really wasn't eating anything all day, until I decided that I probably needed to eat one more meal, so maybe my bowels would move, and it did, wheeww.
Last night I was online trying to get some more info on the successful rates of the surgery at the hospital I am to have it done at. Funny thing is that the site only showed the mortality(death) rates from having that procedure done at that hospital. At this particular hospital it was 9%. When I saw this I was like, holy crap. In my opinion I think that is a big percentage, so your telling me out of 102 people who had this done at this
location 9 died, wow. So I looked at the other hospital that my surgeon does the procedure at also and is a couple miles away, but this one is closer to my surgeons office, there mortality rate is 3%, gave me a little more comfort, so should I ask my surgeon to have it performed here. I know that the leading cause of death in this procedure is an anastomsis leak were that stitch the colon back together. I think that they need some type of test right after surgery to tell if its leaking or not. I wonder if they do? This is the only thing that frightens me right now. I mean I'm thinking about
telling my doc before I go in, that if the incision he makes is to small, then he can
open me up a little more, but make sure I'm not leaking. Funny thing is they say they check for leaks during surgery, how? I'm just praying right now and hoping for the best out of this doc. I mean we put our lives in there hands everytime were on that table, I know they know what there doing, but it gets my nerves jumping. I'm sorry I didn't check in hardly any last week put I was, peeved about
the situation. Now my recovery time will most likely extend into December, not cool. I love the holidays and I am always lokking forward to hanging the outdoor christmas lights. My younger brother and I do it every year, our parents are to lazy to do it now. I like to go all out, and I know if I am not able to do it, it probably wont get done. Not as long as I am able to walk, I will most likely be right there trying to hang lights. Even if I have to climb the later, the lights will go up. Looking forward to Thanksgiving dinner, now I don't know if I will be able to eat it. Noooo, my turkey and stuffing.
Holiday shopping.
I guess I'll have to ride in the electric cart in wal-mart, because, I will be right along with my bro. If not I'll guess I'll stay home and watch my favorite holiday classics, like the old CBS special of Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer and How the Grinch Stole Christmas. Home Alone 2 is my fav holiday movie for some reason. as you can see I'm going off track so I'll stop here. Why did this have to happen during the holidays. I need some more reassurance fellow crohnies, sorry.
