An Update on Me

Finally got an appointment with the g.i. today(haven't seen doc since Nov). Appointment was for 1 pm, so I got there at 12:34. I had to get lables and that took 30 minutes. Didn't get in the room till after 3:30. I read and then took a nap on the table. Came in after 4:30. He left for a looooong time(he was consulating with the head doc). For some reason he seemed "off" today. He laugh a little too much today(at things I didn't find funny).  I didn't walk out the office until 5:33(they close at 4:30). That is the fourth time that has happen. I am always sleepy and tired. It takes me over ah hour to get there and over a hour to get home.  Catscan I took in Dec look normal(inflamation in the colon is a bit better). Bloodwork was good. Still not feeling good and I also just got over a bug. They still don't know if I need surgery. They might increase my Remicade. Might get Remicade every 6 weeks, then every month if it is needed. Talking about steriods again(I actually stopped breathing) and different medicines. He asked about my mental state(little late on that). He also talked about adding more antidepressants or increasing the current one. Getting a psychiatrist(is he calling me crazy?) I am not going to lie, at one point I stopped listening. So I am still just on Remicade.  I was waiting for the head doctor to come in and say "Once again we're stump. See your next month, same time, same place". Of course he didn't. If I am lucky, I might have my answer about surgery by the end of the year. I was thinking about throwing a temper tantrum in the middle of the floor, but I figure they might commit to the mental disable floor of the hospital.  At one point I didn't care about my crohns. I went two years without treatment(only had 2 er visits). I am frustrated to the point of stopping treatment. I just want to get to that happy place.  Even though I am angry, I smiled when a past by a house that was all decked for Mardi Gras. Hope I feel better and have an off day to go to a parade. 

Hi Sounds like you put a full long day in and hope you get to the parade it is nice to get to enjoy ourselves sometimes. lol gail

Today I feel good today   I'm made because I'm missing a video game. Don't you hate when objects grow legs and go missing? I feel better since I talked to my mom and sisters. I never had or heard of a camera scope. I will asked about it when I go back in few months. I think I have a Remicade appointment next week or so, lost dose was in the middle of December. The last time I went to a parade was 2 years ago and I had a lot of fun(first time seeing the Budweiser horses). Just watching the beautiful floats passing at night blasting hard rock is awesome!!! I was a bad girl last week and had paraline cheesecake King cake. I found the baby, so I buy the next one(want blueberry cream cheese). I don't know I was so weired ut when he suggested a psychiatrist(maybe because it was something I wanted to purse in college). I am over the shock and it is a type of therapy I participate in. My 2 year old nephew/"employer" locked me out the house(mom was in the house with him) tonight. I knocked on the screen door and said "Let me in". He walked to the door, looked at me and ask "Who is it?" I was looking for my video game underneath the bed. He ran and told his mom(my sister) I was laying down. While underneath I found some stuff and put it on top on my bed and he told me to "Clean it up". He is always the one who keeps me laughing until he throws something or bite one of his siblings.