What type of support do you have at home? (mother, father, siblings, significant other, friends)...just very concerned. I have used similar language before too...disease, pain, and oh yeah, those wonderful meds can lead to some helpless thinking. I'm pulling for you...
Me...when I am super down, even though it is hard, flower therapy works wonders. Even pictures on the internet (it's even better if I can drag my behind outside). Me likey flowers...all of them...even dandelions bring a smile to my face...
Coming here can help too. Even today, feeling like doody...tears flowing...this place helps...but Please, please, look into local support near you too...
(HEY, THANKS MR. Waite for setting this place up
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